Disclaimer: I do not deny that I could very well be crazy. Why God had compelled me to fall in love or discover love within myself with certain celebrities I have not yet had completely clarified to me yet. Honestly, I could not have cared less about the comings and goings of Brad Pitt and his many wives-to-be until I saw some ridiculous poster of him at my local college in 2009. Something compelled me to explore this person and his persona. Then, as I became further and further ensnared, I found myself looking for ways out of this Brad Pitt obsession and turned to other celebrities. Again, I felt compelled to make the choices I made. Something compelled me to choose Chris Hemsworth (it could have been the huge poster of Thor plastered on the side of a building on Church Street in Toronto that had GOD stamped across his face), a far more sensible choice than Brad Pitt, in my opinion. Then after watching the movie Shame, I felt suddenly compelled to fall for Michael Fassbender, somebody whom I believe has a lot to offer but is something of a wild card. The most recent obsession involves Charlie Hunnam. I have never watched an episode of Sons of Anarchy until a couple of weeks ago. I had simply dismissed this person as a reincarnation of Brad Pitt. Then, for some reason, a week before Christmas, as I was searching the internet, I found myself looking at results involving Charlie Hunnam (I honestly cannot remember why I was even searching this person) and noticed the result Charlie Hunnam and Tom Hiddleston coming to Toronto in February. OK. Then I saw another link about Hunnam having been in Toronto in 2012 for some reason and going out for his birthday. OK. Then suddenly, I kid you not, the wheels clicked again in my head and I felt compelled to pursue this as it, you know, THE ONE. It all happened very quickly. I had almost 6 glorious weeks to fantasize about this person and it was pretty special. Tonight felt like a good night to end it all as it was getting a little bit out of hand, but I feel very much in control of myself. Fantasies are funny things and I believe there is an art and science to engineering them and learning how to navigate them and also learning to be humble enough to know when to let go and know that you are not always in control. So, there you have it. I dont know how many more times Im going to have to rehash it for myself, but I am grateful to have had the opportunity, to be crazy enough, to have these fantasies. They have helped me to discover myself and grow into myself with confidence and peace of mind and humility. They have enriched my life. Thank you.
Posted on: Sun, 02 Feb 2014 05:42:22 +0000
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