Do you ever gets the moments in your life when there is a hell of a lot on your mind and because theres so much crap you find it hard to put in order what upsets you the most..My two main regrets are making big mistakes that I knew were wrong, but never considered what it could do to other people, ones I know and even ones I dont.. All I can do is apologise and say big mistakes that I know are wrong will never occur again. I am not saying I wont make anymore mistakes, but the ones that I do make wont have any major consequences attached to them. I dont expect people to read this and really care, afterall I am one person in amongst billions of others living on this planet..we all want to know our opinion matters and we in some small way want to make others happy, whereas in reality, you are lucky to make someone feel even a little better. I know it sounds depressing, but this is how I felt when I calculated all the things I have not done in my 20s..to be honest, its a real blur! They say you must make amends in your life and set your path to lead the way so you can live it in your 30s..im 28 now and feel like I have accomplished nothing. When I look back on my teens, it feels so long ago..yet in some weird way, it feels like it all happened yesterday. I dont want to be one of those guys anymore who looks back and says I did not do something because I was afraid. When your so used to being told by others to act a certain way, its easy to forget who you really are. Well I know what I want to do, and what I need to do. They say ignorance is bliss, and its good only to avoid your feelings..But what does that gain? Nothing is the answer..you do what I have done tonight and realise by ignoring your emotions you are ignoring your life. I understand now that when your dream dies, a part of you does in the process...I am not saying my results will be great, but its not about that, life is a process and we must all progress and thats what I intend to do !!!
Posted on: Fri, 08 Aug 2014 23:17:06 +0000