Does anyone see a theme in my music? It is called PAIN. I try to always project such strength and it is such bullshit. Ever since my beloved mom was ripped out of my life by a murderer yet to be caught, I am simply NOT okay. I never will be. Those songs represent the 25-year-old girl who still cannot believe how much loss I feel in my heart about losing my mommy. While you all celebrate the wonderful long weekend, I sit crying in my room asking God what happened to my happy life? I had such joy in my heart and am so positive, but now I am like Robin Williams, the sad clown who makes everyone around him feel good. But where were his friends when he needed them? And where are mine? Good question with no answer. Enjoy your happiness whilst you can as it will be taken away at some point and you will then know what it is like to be me. I hope none of you ever feel what I feel today.
Posted on: Sat, 30 Aug 2014 21:01:16 +0000