Earlier today I was considering the concept of gender roles and how they play out in life. I realised I have never really had a clear sense of being either male or female. I didnt feel like a girl as a child and struggled to identify with my female peers. This was perceived as an issue but in fact it was just a lack of identifying with duality. As I grew older I noticed without a doubt that everyone attempted to put me into a female box and give me female roles and labels that I could never understand either. Most of my friends growing up were male simply because they just let me be. But its wasnt that I felt like a male either, I just felt more comfortable without fake feminine influence. Its only now that Im coming to embrace the expression of my female body just for fun. But it really is simply because I have a female body and not because I feel distinctly feminine. I experience myself as a balanced blend of both masculine and feminine in equal expression and I have always been like this, I feel that there are vital keys here. Within me there is the dance of these two forces and I experience the romance of my own being. I have also never been able to form attractions to beings that appear to be outside of me. The concept just made no sense at all when I know that I am all that is. Relationships that I have had have been with others who resonate with my heart, not with those who form an opposite pole and thus complete me in some way. So many people are seeking their opposite pole or what they perceive to be so, but unmerged opposites will only ever bring opposition because this is the very nature of duality. Opposites uncombined must produce tension and this friction is what creates the illusion of movement. But in reality all is in stillness and nothing has ever left inseparable Oneness. The tension that we experience within ourselves is the pull of opposites in different directions as we tussle and struggle and wrestle with ourselves, giving the appearance of a linear journey. If we can somehow let go of linearity, we enter into exponential unfolding. Here there is no need for opposites as a catalyst for the experience of movement. Without the tension of linear time we find changeless change occuring in effortless grace, like a swan ballet across a sky of feathers that is also the deep blue ocean of eternity. So many are seeking what they perceive to be their opposite, but what they are really seeking is balance within. If we can find the dynamic balance of fluidity first, everything else that we seek will fall into place.
Posted on: Sat, 19 Apr 2014 22:36:08 +0000
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