For the last time..let me whine a lil bit. I havent whined in ages. So. As you know i am 15 and I live in Slovakia. Its bad,because im hungarian and people kinda...bully us bc of that. Ofc not all of them,but actually a lot of people. Last year i went tought stuff,but things got better and i am happier now. I am waiting for puberty to hit me,because...im fat. Not just fat- im obviously,terrible overweight. I like bands a lot,i wear band merch in public,and im extremely boyish in fact. But i was born as a girl,what i love and hate. ((yes im bipolar)). I am pan,i have tried to come out, but my parents tought im joking. The other thing- i am extremely sensitive. One sad movie,one rude comment can ruin my entire week :// i am really good from Literature and OK from english,but no matter how i try,i just can not understand Geography and mostly MATHs. People call me nerd and big headed just because except math,geo,chem and phys im an a+ student. Plus in public im extremely shy,and cant even talk :// but it wouldnt hurt.me,if people accepted me. My family hates my- i understand,i can be grumpy sometimes...but they just LOVE my brother- he is excellent from MATHs and stuff i suck at+ he is very cute and handsome. So my family adores him and im just the creepy cousin,yknow. When i grow up i wanna be a filmmaker but family would be happier if i was a doctor or stuff...i play the violin btw,and this year i graduate from it (9 years,yay!) and all the hate i get...there are uglier girls than me with 66784 boyfriends, why cant i just get a bf or gf?? Arghh. I am terrible- actually i cant cook,and i ruin whatever i touch. Ugh during the day i try to be a proud single,, but afternoon i just want someone to cuddle with :( . I get hate because my weird.stuff too- i hate eating in public,i am very superstitous, i have crowns and flower crowns and stuff...and stuff. And my cat died. And we moved, so i have no doggy...thats it. I feel better now
Posted on: Sun, 02 Nov 2014 17:24:05 +0000