Forgiveness has been the theme today so I will go out on a limb and share my own personal experience with forgiveness.... Here it goes... About the age of six or seven I was violently molested by my uncle. It was a traumatic experience for me to handle so I literally blocked it out of my memory until one day I was watching a TV show and the story line triggered the memory. Even to this day its hard to stomach the details. Needless to say that this event was very hard for me to handle over the years. Just devastating and confusing and most importantly shameful. I carried these emotions with me as I grew into a women. The molestation shaped who I had become. sigghhh I wanted to hide, I never wanted to be seen or heard. I was afraid some one else would inflict the same pain upon me. So I stayed hidden, quiet as a mouse, in every aspect of my life. Then he died...My dad drug me to his funeral...I had to chug three beers before I could even get out of the car, my knees were shaking, I held my sisters hand and I prayed. Prayed for the strength to get through this moment with out passing out from anxiety. I stood there listening to the birds chirp, they sang a beautiful song for me that day! While I stood there I watched his oldest son, in his mid twenties cry so hard, a tsunami of tears, I will never forget he had snot running down his face, he was a sight to see. I watched my Dad cry and my Aunt and I didnt understand what all the fuss was about. A couple days had passed and Its all I could think about, then it hit me. FORGIVENESS, forgiveness washed over me. It dawned on me that he was more than the mistake he made. He was a father, a brother, a husband and a son. He was loved by many. He was worthy of love even though he had made a mistake, a really freaking big one mind you, but none the less, he was worthy. So I forgave him. I am 38 years old and I have never experienced a more freeing moment than when I forgave the man who had torn my whole life apart. So my dear friends...If you have been holding on to some thing that has been weighing you down. Free your self from it and forgive. Let it go LoveBirds.
Posted on: Sun, 13 Jul 2014 02:00:00 +0000
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