Friends & even family have poked fun @ me over the last few weeks of my back slide. Makin silly jokes or gestures about my faith & walk with God. Tbh, it bothered me, I aint gonna lie. I even heard, man, i really thought you, out of everyone gone christian would stick with it. I didnt really know how to take that one, lol, because even though Im a sinner (just like everyone) Im still a christian (unlike everyone). I stopped tryin to understand how one day I fell short of prayer and it landed me diggin up bones of the person who I honestly never wanted to see again. Through all of it Ive learned that I cant, CANT face the day til Ive faced God. I just cant. I found myself right back to where I had led myself the first time:depression. And who the heck wants to be sad, lol. NOT this girl!! Especially when I am as blessed as I am. A friend of mine told me sat. that I need to find a release and thats when it hit me. That sneaky, sly devil had once again chained me to my past and was slowly suckin my spirit dry. I aint even tryin to have that!! With one simple prayer of askin God to release me from my bondage I found myself back to where I was meant to be. In His arms :) just like that I was set free once again!! Never will I take my strength for granted for its not mine but His. Ive learned it and Im still learnin. Guess you could say Im a baby christian growin, lol. Anywho, I know this post may be whatev to some but I had it in my heart to share a part of my journey. Its only been 2 days and Ive already heard 3 xs, well see how long this lasts. And youre very right but one thing that will never change is my faith. At least Im tryin :)
Posted on: Mon, 02 Dec 2013 20:11:48 +0000
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