Funny....the more good things happen in my life, the more I have to be self aware, and on guard so to speak. When I experience success, I tend to forget where I was, and what got me to a good spot. I got a job I applied for last week. A great job, with a huge company, unlimited potential, and the owner is my AA sponsor. I will be doing something I have a lot of experience with, but its a blessing he is taking a chance on me. He has been my sponsor less than a week. If thats not the universe sending back what I have been putting out, then........I dont know. Today, after I was hired, I did notice complacency in my positive thinking. I caught myself being arrogant, and short with people. It happened when I went to take my pre employment drug test. I lost patience while waiting for a nurse, and let the receptionist know about it. I felt bad. After I took the test, I asked the nurse if I could speak to the receptionist. I told her I was wrong for snapping at her. She accepted the apology, and said my tantrum was mild compared to others. So I punched her in the face. Lol.....no, that last part didnt happen. The point is that staying diligent about my self awareness is crucial, especially when things are moving in a good direction. I cant forget that it was only through hard work, positive behavior, helping others, and taking suggestions, that these small miracles have happened. It wasnt a coincidence that I got a sweet job today, or that I slept on the street only to end up getting the best possible sponsor. All these ups and downs are a result of whatever I put out to the universe. The most important part....life and death...is that I dont pick up a drug. Its the most simple formula, but the hardest to live by...do the right thing, and good things will happen. Exude positiveness, and you will be open to receive whatever you want. Remain negative, and you will keep getting the short straw. I still have a tough couple days....I have a lot of bills due tommorow. My best friend is in NH getting married Saturday, and I wont be there. I have to be militant about remaining in a good place, finding the lessons in these hardships, and being grateful for everything I do have, like Kimberly Napier, Kory, Cheryl, Casey, and Jim....and everyone else who support me. I was always one to isolate. Now I dont mind being vulnerable....the reward is unconditional support, from the most unlikely people. I AM BLESSED, AND IN HIGH FAVOR TONIGHT!
Posted on: Fri, 01 Aug 2014 01:44:40 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015