Good Morning Yall... had me a good rest. Thinking and praying and am getting kinda stressed out. ALOT needs to be done... I need stuff downstairs. Praying for help. They say ask and thy shall receive... but not in this day and age... PPL forget about.... anyways... I dunno... I just know i need stuff downstairs... I called Community Ops.. but they must of beeen too busy this week... I called Health Ctr... as Dr. Blanca wrote a work order along time ago that i get help... none after Dano passed... Just wanted someone there to let Comm Ops know i cannot lift 20 lbs plus!!! SO that is my stress... I know prepare... arrange... been doing that so much imma tired. Been standing by for so long.. Been letting the stress go... and i have one week to get myself and my stuff downstairs!! It will be done... trying to stay positive as i grieve.. but i just had a good bawl... cried for my man... It is so lonely... YES AOT OF WORK HAS BEEN DONE.... and it dragged out for so long... NOW I can get down there... and no help. My buddy Kelly offers to come by.. and i wait and decide to stay home... then he says he has pneumonia!!! Patience has been with me on facebook... I have been prepping down there.... most of my laundry is done... so many blankets sheets pillow cases and towels i want to put away... but my dressers and cupboard need to go downstairs.... Eric Gonzales has been by... he sees what i have been through... i keep telling him THANK GOD I AM NOT A.... could or taken off and not commit to my late mans wishes.... Thank God I am a good woman.... I havent had one bash in this house... but of course i am not hanging with the old crowd... my choice... i need to stay quiet. I am grieving... I am in ceremony with myself... Changing the space around me... i sleep in the living room now... not my bedroom anymore as i take things out and tell Zoom zoom we are moving downstairs... I dunno if he understands.. its his room too... he has his habits in there too... like if i give him a treat... he takes it into the bedroom... lots of bones i gotta pick up!!! Yup what a journey! Soon changing... changing everyday actually... Just coming to the end of the trail... AND The new trail is going to be a gooder i just know it... worked hard... Then I can really relax... until then i remain... Movin On Movin ON.... Thanks for reading.. i need to let that go... sometimes i reread and delete... and today i need someone to come by and help me with the small stuff... Miigwetch Bmaawdziiyaw. HAGD.
Posted on: Sat, 09 Aug 2014 15:06:34 +0000
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