Good Morning everyone, well I got the flu shot which made me not feel well, an bc of that I been in bed which started to make me depressed over my son where I dont wanna get out of bed or house. This grief hits at anytime an last as long as it wants, my family is nervous that Im heading back to where I was in June which was bad had to be hospitalized to deal with the lost of David an to deal how I found him. Im not ashamed I was in Belmont I needed the help to learn how to live for my daughter Tara, my family is in a panic cause they think Im heading back into a worse depression then before which I may, but Im gonna fight this time hard. I hear my family whispering to Tara an my sis gives me till Monday to get out of bed, well Im getting out today Not for her but for me & Tara ... Im not ashamed to put my business out there of how Im suffering of the lost of my son David. The pain is so hard to describe but it hits hard an out of no where, when you see me smiling sometimes its real but mostly fake Im stick of hearing Im strong No Shit I was a mother of 2 children at 16 a widow at 21 which made me a mother an father to my children, I had David 31 years in my life so to think in 9 months that hes passed which is still raw an to find him hanging an I couldnt help my son down WELL Im entitled to be depressed an to be weak for once in my life. Im not looking for pity party cause if you know me THATS NOT MY STYLE I just want to be able to get thru this MY WAY AN MY TERMS... I LOVE YOU ALL Sorry for the long post but I was twisted. Stay well an truly many blessing to each an everyone of my family an friends.
Posted on: Sun, 27 Oct 2013 11:37:37 +0000
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