Gratitude, Day 6 Day late, dolla short!..... BUT, working on a spiritual practice where you give thanks for the challenges how and when they show up. In that light, today I am grateful for 3 HUGE heartbreaks in my life. Ill start with arguably the easiest & that is the passing a year and a half ago of my BFF & magical lil familiar, Ripple. The gratitude comes in the form of practicing ACCEPTANCE & PRESENCE. Ripple was the ever present shining light in and within my heart & soul. Saying goodbye to her was something i couldnt bring myselfto do until it was almost too late. With the knowledge n wisdom of hindsight i can see how this brave and powerful little spirit was trying to communicate her truth to me. I couldnt and didnt want to see it. The whole situation sirrounding her passing, however, was full of gifts & learnings. Letting go..... surrendering to the truth, being aware in the moment. Present. She STILL gives me these gifts DAILY and now, in a way, its even MORE tangible how in and within me she is. She IS everywhere..... LOVE is everywhere ever present and the MOST important transformational we have as humans. The other 2 deal more with love lost..... broken trust, abandonment, betrayal. Ive had a BRUTAL awakening in regards to trust, loyalty and committment and it came as a one- two punch to the gut. Theres no need for great detail- my storys not that different from many who expereinced a broken marriage/family. But what i WILL say is having people you believed you could trust with your whole self so thoroughly prove otherwise is a pain almost impossible to verbalize. It took me over a year, in both cases, to even believe, let alone accept. But, boy O boy did it teach me ALOTabout trusting my own heart and instincts... With both my ex husband and my relative who did me serious harm..... there were SO SO many signs along the way. I ignored every single one. Wellllll... in my own wishy washy Pisces girl way i tried to address. But not SERIOUSLY, not powerfully or decisively. I paid a heavy price, in both cases. So, th gratitude comes in 2 forms- Gratitude for CLARITY; Gratitude for the lesson in trusting my instincts n vibes. They were both pretty rough insensitive teachers...... but the lessons stuck. I TRUST what my soul screams out to me now. And i am not swayed by easy pretty words. I am grateful for the clarity with which i see them now and apply THAT to all areas of my life. So, thank you pain, betrayal, disloyalty & unnecessary roughness! I can SEE now....& Ill take it ♡
Posted on: Wed, 24 Sep 2014 01:50:42 +0000