HELLO GROUPIES, I AM WRITING THIS IN CAPITAL LETTERS BECAUSE I - TopicsExpress

HELLO GROUPIES, I AM WRITING THIS IN CAPITAL LETTERS BECAUSE I DONT SEE TOO WELL IN THE WINTER, BECAUSE I HAVE CATARACTS. i HAVENT BEEN FEELING TOO WELL THE PAST COUPLE OF WEEKS, AND IN A LOT OF PAIN. I HAVE SOME APOLOGIES TO MAKE BUT 1ST I WILL EXPLAIN ABOUT THE CONDITION I HAVE, FIRST OF ALL I HAVE A CONGENITAL SPINAL CONDITION, CURVATURE OF THE SPINE AND MY RIGHT HIP DID NOT DEVELOP PROPERLY, BUT THAT DOES NOT AFFECT ME, iVE HAD ONE LEG SHORTER THAN THE OTHER ALL OF MY LIFE, I TRY TO BE AS INDEPENDENT AS I POSSIBLY CAN BE. MY OTHER CONDITION IS LIPOEDMA A RARE AND INCURABLE GENETIC CONDITION, WHICH IS ALSO CALLED PAINFUL SKIN CONDITION, THIS CAUSES MY LEGS TO BE SWOLLEN AND PAINFUL, AND I HAVE PAINFUL LUMPS UNDER THE SKIN THAT PRESS ON THE NERVES. THIS CONDITION IS CAUSED BY A CONSIDERABLE HORMONE IMBALANCE, AND HAS AFFECTED MY CONFIDENCE AND SELF ESTEEM, I WAS ALWAYS AWARE SINCE I WAS A CHILD THAT I WAS DIFFERENT FROM ANYONE ELSE, BUT WAS CONTINUALLY TOLD THAT THE PROBLEM WITH MY LEGS WAS MY FAULT, I DID NOT GET A DIAGNOSIS UNTIL 2 YEARS AGO. i HAVE ALWAYS BEEN VERY SENSITIVE BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN JUDGED UNFAIRLY VERY OFTEN IN THE PAST. THIS CONDITION IS WORSE FOR ME IN THE WINTER, AS THE PAIN IS WORSE, BUT PAINKILLERS ONLY MAKE THE SITUATION WORSE, RIGHT NOW THE SKIN IN MY ULCER IS BURNING A LOT. SOMETIMES I HATE MYSELF FOR THE GENETIC CONDITION. I STILL HAVE A HORMONE IMBALANCE AND PERSONAL CIRCUMSTANCES THE PAST COUPLE OF YEARS HAVE CAUSED ME TO LOSE THE REST OF THE CONFIDENCE I HAD. I LIVE IN THE PAST BECAUSE I WAS NOT DISABLED AND ILL THEN, I HAD LOTS OF FRIENDS AND COULD GO ANYWHERE I WANTED. I AM NERVOUS ABOUT MEETING NEW PEOPLE AND I MUST REALISE THAT OTHER PEOPLE MAY BE NERVOUS TOO, AND IF THEY DONT SPEAK, ITS NOT BECAUSE THEY DONT LIKE ME ! I OWE SANDRA AN APOLOGY, SHE DID COME AND INTRODUCE HERSELF TO ME, BUT I DIDNT FEEL COMFORTABLE BECAUSE HER FRIEND MADE A FLIPPANT REMARK ABOUT THE CARDS I HAD MADE FOR RICHARD & ADAM. I WANTED TO GO OUT TO THE FOYER IN THE INTERVAL BUT MY LEGS WERE TIRED AND I COULDNT ASK MY FRIEND TO PUSH MY WHEELCHAIR ! I SHOULDNT HAVE GOT UPSET THAT OTHER PEOPLE GOT TO SEE THE BOYS AFTER THE SHOW, IT WAS A PRIVATE PARTY. THIS HAS NOT BEEN AN EASY THING TO DO, BUT I AM A GOOD PERSON, AND IT WAS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. I AM NOT IN A GOOD PLACE IN MY LIFE AT THE MOMENT, BUT I DONT WANT PEOPLES SYMPATHY, I DONT HAVE A FAMILY OF MY OWN AND NOT MANY FRIENDS APART FROM MY GROUPIE FRIENDS, I AM ASKING FOR YOUR HELP TO GAIN THE STRENGTH TO COPE WITH ALL THESE THINGS ON MY OWN. I HAVE JOINED A GROUP FOR OTHER LADIES WHO HAVE THE SAME CONDITION AS ME, AND HAVE GOT SOME HELP THERE. RICHARD AND ADAM AND THE GROUPIES HAVE BEEN A LOT OF HELP TO ME, SO PLEASE CAN YOU HELP ME NOW ! IF I HAVE UPSET OR OFFENDED ANYONE THEN PLEASE FORGIVE ME, I DID NOT MEAN TO, I JUST HAVE NO CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF. Christine xx