Had to wake up like I had to work to take my son to work because his car in ICU until tomorrow afternoon! Im just reflecting back on my loved ones I lost and kicked it with! Yea it was my unsaved moments but Im thinkin about all the LOLOLOL times and how they gave me some of dis ol God given wisdom I got! If God used a donkey He a use anybody and at the time I was to blind to see that the knowledge I gained runnin them streets with them it could be used for good thats goin on in my life RIGHT NOW! You dont never know what God be doin when some ppl run across your life. At the moment it seem like a vein coincidence but reflecting back God was settin my blessed and favored future up using the ppl I ran with(most are deceased)! I think about every funny and wisdom filled moment I spent with all of em! Whats funny my daddy told me when I was about 25 June, stop goin to all these funerals. I know why he said that now! When somebody I was formerly close to die I feel it when it first happen but whats crazy is it has become a normal thing in my life smh! Ppl that die and not of natural causes feel normal and thats not normal! I learned to love what I got and remember what I had. And I dont never for one second forget where I cant from.......and it was a LONNNNNG and HURTFUL way! I had a smile on the outside and was HURTIN on the inside! I still hurt but the difference between then and now I GOT A HEALER.......and HE IS PIECING me together and making me the person I was suppose to be from the beginnnnnninnnnng! Im a work in progress and after all I been thru ion know to many that can fill my shoes! I wouldnt pay nobody to try! This been a JOURNEY and some wouldve gave up a LONG TIME AGO! I got a lot I aint done yet, a lot to fulfill, and its ALL GOOD STUFF! God seen me thru............ He always had His hand on my life! I see that now! God get all the glory out of Juney life! Its been RUFF! If it wasnt for God using a Woman named Barbara Broach at the Waffle House when I was out of my mind, I wouldnt be hangin on to Jesus with my fingernail! When God call u ANSWER! You may think I got to much goin on I need to straighten up before I go to God! Know this: Youll never straighten yourself up by yourself! You need God to clean you up! Some it happens faster than others but the race is not given to the swift, nor the strong, but the one that endureth til the end. In this walk youll feel like giving up, throwing in the towel, feelin like u aint worthy, feelin filthy, still wantin to hang with old friends who doin things u suppose to break away from. YEA THATS THIS LIFE! But you gotta be bout this life and pick yourself up and keep it moving!!!! God will fix you in due time but u gotta say YES! And your yes might mean being crushed even after coming broken......but its worth it! While u in the process the good thing is that God is close to the brokenhearted and to those with a contrite spirit! That mean HE WALKIN WITH U! #takeupyourCROSS #FOLLOWHIM
Posted on: Sat, 24 Jan 2015 11:46:53 +0000
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