Hate being alone. I come on too strong to people I like. My heart is huge, I want to be loved. It seems like the harder I try and the more I succeed in being a good, genuine person, the more difficult things become. My mind is infinitely clearer than it was just a year ago. I feel blessed to have a mind without monsters and endless noises that keep me awake at night. I feel blessed to not spend so many nights in the hospital, waiting for pills and screams from other patients. But the clearer and better and more efficient my mind becomes and the more knowledge I obtain through studying and practicing my art; the more frustrated interactions become with others. I might just be trying too hard. I need to relax and let connections I want to last forever, just happen. I cant force or pry. I cant be too strong, I just need to be me. A fun loving, smart, good, genuine guy like Ive always been. And just let love happen. Hope everyone had a great day today. Sorry if this was on the sad side. :)
Posted on: Mon, 06 Oct 2014 05:47:49 +0000