Having a rough tearful day. Missing my mom on the anniversary of her death, and missing Kev horribly. Couldnt sleep last night all the what ifs what nows whats it going to be like. I havent wrote Kevs obit yet cant bring myself to write and dont have the information to finish it. I havent wrote Kev eulogy there is just too much to say and I am trying to find the words... the right words to honor the greatest man I have ever known my husband. I have stayed prayerful through the night and this morning. I missed church this morning. But I am listening to my Christian music and Joyce Meyers and trying to get stuff done before I return to work tomorrow. I havent done a lot around the house and I have not been able to take the Christmas down. I am trying to make myself do anything to get ready to come home. Eating and showering seems such a daunting task but I am doing both.Talking to God through out the day trying to manage the deafing silence now that Kevs gone. I am okay just anxious to be home. While I am having tearful moments I am also having moments of peace and happiness allowing myself to remember and grieve and draw close to Kevs bright and amazing impact on my life. I am at this point truly leaning on the arms of our Lord and know he will continually provide and sustain me in these coming days.
Posted on: Sun, 28 Dec 2014 18:59:25 +0000
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