Hazel/Augustus (TFIOS) A headcannon by ~ The Magical Llama Who Is Not Okayᴬᴰᴹᴵᴺ :) While going through Augustuss things, I found a stack of letters. Filing through, wondering if my name was in there, I found a my name at the bottom. I opened it, and began to read. Dear Hazel, I have a million things to say to you. I know this letter will probably never reach your hands, but either way, I still need to let this all out. The first thing I have to say? Im sorry. I was the luckiest guy in the world, to have a girl as kind natured as you, and you are the only person who Ive known who didnt love widely. If you think of it this way, love is like a swimming pool. Most people would choose this option. To pick the bigger swimming pool, but the water was shallow. Those people let people into take a dip, they can never truly understand how it would feel like, to be actually loved by that person. You, however, unlike the rest of them, picked a small...pool of love. Your pool of love was so deep that once you granted me permission into it, I couldve drowned in it. I never realized that love could be this dangerous. You loved so deeply that I wanted to get out, but I didnt. Your love was so intoxicating, like a florists in springtime, that I couldnt help but just stay near you, with you, and want to be with you forever. As much as I knew, that couldve never happened. We were two teenagers, head over heels in love, trying to figure out something that was beyond our power. We thought we were invincible. You never realized, that on the whole trip, when we were going to meet Peter van Houten, that I was coming closer to my death every second. Still, Im sure of one thing now. The way that you handled the rejection of Van Houten, you could be strong enough to handle my passing. Youre a strong girl, Hazel. I know that you can go through this. Maybe, you can go remake your life, and find another boy. Dont worry about me, Hazel. Ill always be up here, heaven or hell, or something like that, but either way Ill be watching you. All I want, Hazel, is you to have a chance of living your life to the fullest. My life will be short, but I promise you, the time that Ive spent with you was the best time of my life. Maybe some infinities are bigger than others. I love you, Hazel. Stay strong. Love, Augustus Waters P.S: Youll be okay. Okay? -- I barely register the tears streaming down my cheeks, silently singing a song of loss and sadness, and dripping off my cheeks, dampening my shirt. My tears had a short life, like Augustus. All the happy feelings I have managed to gather since Augustuss death wash away, as I give up everything and sit on Augustuss bed, hugging my knees to my chest. Augustus...I love you more than anything in the world. And I still do.
Posted on: Tue, 05 Nov 2013 12:32:15 +0000