Hello friends!!! So... its been way too long since Ive posted on this page!!! Anyway, let me cut to the chase!!! I started this page in hopes to lose weight and track my progress as I go along this treacherous journey!!! Well let me start by saying I have strayed from the path way too long!!! I have not lost any weight, as a matter of fact I have managed to gain the weight I lost and then some!!! When I started this page my starting weight was somewhere around 340 lbs. Or so... I am currently at 360+... I feel embarrassed and ashamed that I have let you all down... most importantly I let myself down!!! I know that if I continue to live the way I do and not take care of myself, I will die!!! Worse yet I will die while my wife is at work... she will come home to find Delilah crying over my dead body pleading for me to wake up!!! All this I know... but I just dont know what else to do!!! I dont know how to... I dont like feeling the way I do... i feel so defeated... I feel unhappy... dont get me wrong... I love my life... I am just unhappy with myself so I feel like, whats the point??? Then I think of my wife and kids!!! They get me through the day by day situations... but... I just know that if I just let it be... Id be dead within the year... I NEED HELP!!! I cant seem to do it!!! I am starting to lack motivation and drive to just get out of bed some days!!! Ugh!!! Sorry to put a damper on your day... but thats just how I feel right now... and I feel like you all needed an explanation of my lack of faith... I know, you all find my lack of faith disturbing!!! Anyway... just had to get that out there!!! Heres to the #STRUGGLE!!! I love you all!!! #operationbeforeandafter!!! DeLL :-)
Posted on: Fri, 10 Oct 2014 19:59:11 +0000
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