Heres a little something #REAL... Look... So I gave her my heart, thinking shes be responsible for cherishing it! I gave her my trust, thinking she wouldnt abuse it! I gave her ALL OF ME, thinking shed do the same in return! But her love was selfish... While mine was given! I accepted less because I thought little was better than nothing! I thought shed actually grow to give me more! Not even realizing that I was setting the standard to how she could treat me! I was her steal, something so valuable that she could treat so cheap! Something so special, that she could get so easy! I didnt make her live up to the person I should have! So instead, she made me settle for a person who was far below my worth! I let love; that bridge that goes from heart-to-heart be built off of words... Not actions! I knew love wasnt supposed to hurt! But what did I do... I accepted the pain! I knew love wasnt what she was giving me, but I still took it! I knew love was honest, but I still believed all the lies! I was trying to create the relationship I wanted... Out of someone who wasnt capable of giving that to me! I gave her a title that she didnt deserve! I gave her a heart that she didnt deserve! I gave her a ME that she didnt deserve! I added to her life, while all she did was subtract from mine! The thought she could change one day, took my heart! I was trying to give oxygen to a relationship that was already dead! I was trying to hold on to a person that was letting go of me! All I started to see, was who she could be! So that made me blind to who she really was! I was in love with the hype! I let that relationship take my relationship with my family and God! I even let it burn bridges in some of my friendships! I let that relationship make me think true love doesnt exist! I let that relationship ruin most of my life! But Im back in the progress of fixing it all back together now! I got a job Im not going to leave for a girl! I still have my family that Im not going to forget for a girl! The relationship I was in, even had me to believe at first I wasnt good enough... Even though I knew for a fact that God made me strong and great! It made me start to hate to see happiness, to see happy couples... It made me lose my self esteem! It made me think that alone was the best way to live! That girl that didnt love me, is keeping me from the one who will... God! Starting right now though, I give my heart, my all, my everything to Him()!! Because I trust hell place me in the hands who deserves me most! I give my heart to him, so he can give me that love Ive been searching for! The heart thats meant to love me, should have to go through Him() to find me! So Ill know, if they havent built a relationship with God, then there will be NO chance that Ill give them the time or day to build a relationship with me! #PointBlank! Trust me when I say and know what true love doesnt feel like! So I promise whoever, that Ill never settle for that feeling again! Ever! Im not gonna blame anyone(exes) for who they are or who they were! Just gonna blame myself... Yeah I said it... Blame myself for thinking they were different! The love they pretended to give, wont have a chance from anybody to mislead me again! You can bet on that!! No more letting anybodys ugly ways, have me to think Im not good enough! Because guess what... I know I am(not to sound cocky or anything) From here on out... All #SMILES! Because truth of the matter, it wasnt my fault! Well it was because I accepted lies over and over! But its their fault... For missing out on the best thing of their life!! Its #RehabTime! #HealingProcess
Posted on: Sat, 16 Nov 2013 05:30:28 +0000
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