Hey guys, just need to get something off my chest. *Warning, this may be a novel* Ive always tried to be a good person, and have been compassionate for all of humanity. Especially over the past year, I have only grown in my love for people, as well as respect for people and for honor. I have really tried to get out of jumping to conclusions or making my own assumptions about people out of my rear end. Furthermore, I care so deeply about people, that if someone comes to me and tells me that so and so said something, I go directly to that person and talk to them like a human being because I dont want any bad feelings to set in. Previously, my knee-jerk reaction would be to get defensive, snobbish, and proceed to talk about that person behind their back (which is obviously the most childish thing to do in a situation like that). With all of this said, very recently, a friend told me that there had been assumptions and talk behind my back about the reasons why we have decided to move back to Michigan. Now, Im not going to explain anything over this terrible outlet, since it is the worst place to defend yourself, nor do I feel the need to defend myself to anyone because I have nothing to prove. I couldnt care less what people think about me. I really used to, and the more I would live like that, the more I would get angrier and angrier as a person, which I do not wish said feelings on anybody. But to be honest, it kind of hurt a little. It only hurt because I am on everyones side, and only wish for the best for people, and back anybody up, even the one who everyone is against. I believe that people are good in nature, and that any manifestation of the opposite is just operating out of a nature that is not natural to them. Humanity is good. I feel like I give nobody any reason to want to jump to conclusions about me or my family. I love myself. I am proud of myself, and all of the decisions I have made in my life so far (except when I decide to eat tacos at 2 in the morning). I have no regrets, just learning opportunities (learned that one from my awesome team at Advia Credit Union (formerly E&A)). So judgmental people do not phase me, as I have realized that I am not out to please anyone because it is impossible. I am only here to love people like Jesus, put people and their pressing needs before myself, and help people the best way I know how, and Im here to tell you that I believe Ive done a darn good job so far. I guess I say all that to say this: I am sorry. I am sorry that you are an unhappy person, and that the only way that you can find happiness, is to talk about someone behind their back. That all of the gossip is just a projection of your own unhappiness, and that you feel like its the only way you can feel better about something. I am a very happy person, and I love my life. I love my family. I know I have only been married for a few years, and I know that most of you have plenty of married years on me, but I love that woman fiercely, and I have never in my life even scratched one one-millionth of a percentage of the surface of how I love Regina. I love being a dad. I love the look in my sons face every time I come home from school or work, and he is about to explode with happiness. Im sorry that you feel like you need to knock the wind out of my sails, and more than anything else, I wish complete and abundant life and happiness on you. Now, I have no idea who said what or the extent of what was said, and frankly, I dont give a rats arse. I love all of you guys, and I really dont need you to love me back. It still wont change the fact that I am happy, and that I care so deeply for all of you. The next time, I just wish you would ask or talk to me directly, instead of trying to put it all together with a mutual friend. Im not a scary person, I promise. If you want to know why something is the way it is, and you ask me in a polite, *human* way, then I will be more than glad to tell you, or at least tell you its personal. ;) Love you guys. The too long;didnt read version: Dont talk about people behind their backs. Its not cool.
Posted on: Tue, 22 Apr 2014 01:40:35 +0000
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