Hi Everyone I removed the video i posted last night Marie said when she got up this morning dont give them the pleasure seeing you like that Allan. Like all Saturdays i find them really hard and yesterday was my dads birthday too i am so bloody angry just now with everything. The fact that Christmas is coming up and my son Allan will not be there is really taring me apart and these bastards that know what has happened to Allan will be celebrating it is so wrong. I seem more focused on getting the people who we think are responsible for our Allans disappearance. What i should be doing is keeping the pressure on the police and keep focused on finding our son Allan. I swear i will break at one point something has to give soon or later. Me posting videos drunk and upset is getting me no where i cant help my feelings i love and miss my son Allan so much. The thing is i always drank on a Saturday as Allan would be out on a Friday at his friends and it was a day i could relax as he would be back in the house early hours Saturday morning. The only reason Allan went out that Saturday is because of an engagement party. I really have to rethink what i am doing on a Saturday now as i get so angry now. Marie says maybe i should just keep of the laptop on Saturdays i think she has a good point there. This Christmas is going to be really hard but i need to focus on my two daughters Sophie and Amy and make sure they have an awesome time with Allan not being there it is just not affecting me it is affecting all of us.. Allan was more of a kid than Amy and Sophie he always opened his presents first. Even putting this status up is making me angry these bastards will get caught and they will get punished. We want to thank everyone for there support again it really does mean the world to us. Love from me Marie Amy and Sophie
Posted on: Sun, 14 Dec 2014 16:53:30 +0000