How much do I miss you? I am sure you know it because you also may be feeling the same for me. If I calculate in amount than I have to use “so much” because I can’t really describe you in amount. It starts from the very beginning in the morning. As soon as I wake up I check my phone for miscalls and messages. Sometimes I get and sometimes I don’t but whenever I get one it really makes me smile early in the morning. And the thing I really want to do then is to see a sight of you. The only thing possible that I can do to see then is to flip through your photos. Every photo of you has a different you in it and it makes me smile looking at a perfect someone who loves me a lot. The thing I want to do all the time when I am far away from you is to see you in real and hug you, hold your hand, see through your eyes, see you smiling, staring at you for a really long time and many more desires which can’t be fulfilled in your absence and makes my heart heavy and makes me feel. The feeling which I am talking about out here is a missing feeling and the only silly things I can do is bite my inner lips and hug my legs but do you think that can really comfort me? Every single thing in and around me has some connection with you and reminds you all the time when I see those and you know only I can avoid none from the time I wake up, brush, eat, sit, lie down, walk, take bath, surf, travel, phone, sleep etc everything has some connection with you and even if I decide to do nothing I can’t really stop thinking about you even for awhile also. It is just so difficult to stop thinking about you because you already rule my heart and do you think I can stop serving my ruler even for awhile. And as similar to that if I try to do also the only things which I can get beyond the lines or beyond you will be pain. And at times when you get angry and when you are so far away from me and on top if I am not able to contact the person who knows about this pain is me. The only thing that comes to my mind then is to die. And I hope you know how it feels when you miss someone so much that you feel like dying. As you know there is nothing more that death for a human life. Similarly there may not be any missing feeling as much as miss you right now my darling angel.. I love you.. I miss you so much… :’(
Posted on: Sat, 15 Jun 2013 00:11:10 +0000