How my faith in Jesus began: It came at a time of deep spiritual searching. As a young man I didnt really care about anyone but myself. I realised I was an incredibly selfish but then I thought, why should I care? Is there any reason not to be selfish? But that began a spiritual search and a question in me is there any meaning to life?. I read scriptures from many world religions and began meditating. I was probably closest to becoming buddhist. I definately did not want to be christian because I thought of Christians as hipocrits. I wasnt raised christian and I thought, in a world of many different faiths, what are the chances, the faith which is best known in my culture would be the true one? I came to two conclusions which were defining. One is that all faiths cant be true. They contradict each other on major points which were irreconcilable. The second was that I would never figure out the truth with my own intellect. I became more and more confused and frustrated and one day I prayed in desparation God or the universe or whatever, just give me something or else Ill just get on with my life and be an atheist! That very night I had a life changing dream. The first part was bad. I saw that many of the things I was thinking about at the time were evil. Id never seen things that way before and never thought of myself as evil. I realised for the first time that I wasnt a basically good person as Id thought. The next part of the dream, I walked into a white temple. There, people from all different faiths were arguing and discussing their ideas. But then someone led me by the arm outside the temple. The person said Let me play you a gospel song. They picked up a harmonica and started to play. Now the only way I can describe this music is that it was like every note contained the entire universe in it! Thats a weak description but that is the only way I can possibly explain what this music was like. 100, 000, 000, 000 times more beautiful than any music Id ever heard(and I was a music lover)! Then as I looked across a grassy field and a horizon and I began to feel an all consuming love. All consuming, all penetrating love! Thats the only way I can describe it and its a weak description of what I experienced. I cant compare it to anything because nothing compares to it. And as I was feeling this I saw written in the sky Jesus is Lord and then I woke up crying with joy! A lot has happened between then and now. Its been a journey but I can honestly tell you, along the way Ive seen many of the things that happen in the New Testament like miraculous instant healings, demons being cast out etc......
Posted on: Thu, 25 Dec 2014 12:04:04 +0000
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