How to Make Things Happen Without Initiating Anything Yesterday, I wrote about how discovering my Human Design (HD) changed my life. It turns out, Im a Generator, not a Manifestor. This means I need to wait to respond instead of initiating things. But, initiation and making things happen was always the way I got things done in the past. And it always left me frustrated and hitting a ceiling I couldnt get past, so I knew I had to make a shift. When I first learned of my HD, I felt worried. I couldnt imagine how I could make this shift and still create what I wanted in the world. Today, Im sharing how following my Strategy and Authority is guiding me to establish an ashram without initiating anything. This is just one example, in a string of many, but its a powerful one that I think will see you to better understand how this all seems to work. It all starts at Burning Man. Of course. Well, the truth is that this particularly story begins at Apogaea, the local Colorado Burning Man event, this past June. Thats a whole long story in and of itself, but suffice it to say that I was supposed to be at a wedding in Sedona that weekend that got canceled because really I needed to be at Apo to meet the man who would next shift the course of my life. More on Him and all that another time. Fast forward to Burning Man and we had fallen in love. Deeply. We were talking marriage and babies. I was shocked, but so excited at the same time. It was time to have a full closure with Craig, my former partner. He had asked me to take our handfast belt (used to symbolize our one year commitment to each other that ended in May) to the Temple and leave it there to Burn. At the same time, I was feeling doubts and uncertainties about marriage and babies. I would take those to the Temple too. I biked to the Temple alone one morning before the sun rose and found a space deep in the recesses of a corner. With my headlamp on, I wrote my gratitude to Craig for all he had brought to my life over the prior years. I found myself thanking him for always talking about his daughters mother and what a good mother she was because it gave me a vision for the kind of reality I would want to have babies again. I would want to have a life more like her life. I began to dream into this life. I could feel myself on land with my Beloved, or Habibi as he had called me. I could feel the land my Habibi grew up on, ironically very close to where I am writing from now. I could feel us surrounded by our loved ones, friends, chosen family, and his family of origin. I could see people coming to this land to learn to live in full acceptance of Self and Others by immersion in a new consciousness. I understood this land would not just be our home, but an Ashram. And not just ours, but belonging to a Collective. I wrote all this down and as the sun came up, I got ready to leave. I looked to my right and in that moment, I saw a figure rising from the floor of the Temple where she had been asleep. I looked more closely sure my eyes were deceiving me. Erica. Dear friend, sister, another Beloved. I hadnt seen her when I came in to the Temple or chose my spot to pray and have my ritual. But there she was and I waved her over. As she sat, I remembered she had just bought a home in Crestone, eerily close to the land of my Habibis family of origin. And she had just completed her Masters in Divinity, on her way to becoming a full Reverend, or as I understood it, a true Priestess. I shared with her my vision of an Ashram. I told her I think maybe I am supposed to move there and create an Ashram. She said, Sai Maas Ashram is for sale. I could feel my heart leap. I had felt connected to Sai Maa for some time, even recently downloaded some of her materials. (I would later find out that another one of my dearly Beloveds, Colby, was right at that moment in a 4-day event with Sai Maa back in Denver.) When I got back home from Burning Man, I looked up the land and saw I had been discounted from nearly a million dollars down to $375k. What?!? And as I shared my vision, I had other Beloveds say yes, they would buy it. But things with my Habibi, the one who had inspired the vision, began to falter. I began to see that our vision of marriage and babies at Burning Man would not integrate into the Grand Playa. I let the dream go. Until Erica reignited it by posting about the land on Facebook and tagging me. Suddenly people were connecting with me, asking me to call it forth. And last Saturday night, after the Success3.0 Halloween Gala (one of the best nights of my life), a girl came running up to me. Ali, Ali, Ali, its me. Its Krystle. Hi!! she was jumping up and down, hugging me. I felt embarrassed because I didnt know she was and by her greeting it felt as if I should. I said that to her and she introduced herself properly. Im Krystle. I met Craig on a bus many years ago and he told me about you. Ive just moved to Crestone and Im ready to steward the land. Im ready. Ah, Krystle, yes. Craig spoke of her often. The visionary artist. Krystleyez. Yes I knew her. Family. I burst into tears. I was being called and I couldnt ignore the call. It turns out that Soul Family has been gathering in Crestone. Erica. Krystle. I later found out that my dear sister Alinka and her Beloved, Miles, are also in Crestone. So here I am. Responding to the call. The deep uh-huh of the Generator arises from within, impossible to ignore. I canceled my plans to be in the Bay Area for Bill Barens Conscious Business Playground, packed up my kids and drove down here last night. Today, we will visit the hot springs nearby at Valley View and then the Ashram later this afternoon. I will seek guidance on my next steps by feeling into my emotional center, looking for each next Choiceless Choice. And saying yes as it arises. I feel excitement. And fear. And deep gratitude for this unfolding. My Habibi, who is not currently part of this vision, is a Manifestor in the HD system. He initiated this possibility in my heart and soul, and I see now that was his role. We are not meant to be married and have babies. That dream was meant only to catalyze the possibility that now arises of this Ashram, this community of awakening and consciousness, this deepening into a much greater Love than one man and woman can create together. We have released each other to our next stages of evolution. I do so with so much gratitude and love. If you are a Generator or Manifesting Generator reading this, consider this your call to respond. Feel deep into your being and if you feel an Uh-Huh resonating, please be in touch.
Posted on: Sat, 08 Nov 2014 17:02:34 +0000
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