I HAVE CANCER. Throughout the past several months since I was diagnosed, I have debated with myself regarding who to share that information with, when to share it, how to share it, and how much to disclose to whom. My mother battled cancer for years and one of the things that always troubled me was that she spent so much of her time going through treatment and battling cancer, and then spent so much more time answering a constant barrage of questions from (well meaning and concerned) family and friends on everything. To me, that seemed exhausting and unnecessary. That is an experience that I do not want to go through, so I am making different choices for my own life. Until a few weeks ago, literally only a handful of people knew about the cancer. I wanted to wait to share anything with the general public (and family and friends on Facebook) until I was able to tell my father in person, and share the news directly with my brothers and nephews and nieces and a few close friends. Although I debated posting this on Facebook at all, in the end it simply seemed like the most efficient way to share the information quickly and concisely with the rest of my friends and family, without having to send dozens of personal messages with the same information. So, this is my way of sharing the news with those of you in my life. I will not be posting a lot regarding the medical situation that I am in; my focus will remain on other things that I am passionate about and want to share with loved ones and friends. Please understand that I am not unwilling to share basic details and updates with friends and family; if you have questions or you have something that you want to share with me, please feel free to send me a private message or text or call me. I am simply not willing to invest hours and hours of my life focusing on the intimate details of the disease or detailing every aspect of the progress and process of the disease or the treatment. Honestly, I can think of far better ways to spend my time and conversations with each of you! So, please dont take it personally if I am quiet about something that you may be concerned about. It is not apathy on my part; it is my conscious choice (after a lot of thought on the matter) regarding what I am focusing myself and my time and energy upon. And that is NOT cancer. It is life and love and relationships. Please know that I am truly alright. Spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, I am in a good place. Ironically, the greatest challenges of this entire situation have been the financial challenges, with medical bills piling up and more coming in, constantly. Since medical appointments conflicted with my work and college courses, I no longer have an income and have had to place my studies on hold indefinitely. A friend encouraged me to start a fundraising page, so I will be doing that, for anyone who wants to help financially. But, I want to reassure everyone that I am alright, right now. And the One who created me is more than able to sustain my life, as He chooses. There is not much else to say, at this point... so I will leave it at that. Love, Magz
Posted on: Thu, 25 Sep 2014 20:56:47 +0000
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