I STAYED HOME FROM WORK TODAY, TUESDAY. The thought of working in the afternoon and evening at the library scared me too much. I know my fears are irrational; the folks at the library, including my supervisors and the director, assure me that my job is secure and that nobody is pushing me out the door, but still I have this free floating fear that overwhelms me. I plan to go into work tomorrow, Wednesday, the next day and finish off the week Friday. Saturday I see my doctor; I will discuss medication adjustments with her and then go right to the pharmacy. I know my fears are not rational; my job is secure, my apartment is secure. Sure, I have a problem with insects in my apartment, but the insects are not a threat. The insects are harmless, and are only a nuisance, not a threat. I need to practice at overcoming this fear, but for now it overwhelms me, it frightens me. For instance, it took me until 4pm today to get the courage to turn on soothing music. Why? There is no reason to be frightened, but the fright is there and I feel it very sharply. I need to be reassured by others that I have nothing really to be scared about. I still have hope, and still plan to fight on! I hope and plan to stay at my job as long as I can, and keep my apartment clean and in good shape. Things are really basically good, but I need to constantly remind myself of that and not be so frightened. Thanks again, friends, for all the support. Keep it coming, I need more!
Posted on: Tue, 09 Sep 2014 20:43:24 +0000
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