I SURRENDER, TO PLEASURE Last night I sat hand in hand next to my beloved Dave Donatiu, listening to wisdom from Kamala Devi and Robert Silber. My mind made leaps. Thoughts emerged, a delicious concoction that was evoked from what I heard and what I felt. Surrender, I thought. Surrender not to death but to life. Surrender to whatever comes. And most importantly, surrender to whatever it takes to be of the greatest service to the world. Whatever it takes. However it looks. I can no longer direct the flow, for in directing comes limitation. All of my being needs to be in alignment. Perhaps Ive been fighting myself in an attempt to manage the flow, to win cancer. Our greatest power is in total alignment. What if I stopped trying to win and instead focused on surrendering to service? I still do All The Things -- the pills, the juices, the mindful eating, the enemas -- but I do them in surrender instead of protest. Furthermore, I do All The Things in a way that brings my body and being the most pleasure. And I employ other practices and craft other opportunities to surrender to pleasure. Pleasure heals. Pleasure, not pain, is our natural state. If I surrender to pleasure instead of fighting life, wont this enliven my body and being more than anything else? And if I do not Win Cancer, if I am surrendered to greatest service to the world while experiencing life as pleasure, then its a win win anyway. But no worries!! I dont feel as if I am going anywhere anytime soon. What I do feel is that Im going to learn a whole lot from this experience in the next few months that I will take forward. So I am stopping my resistance of my situation. Im attempting to embrace it as best I can, to come into full acceptance. And Im determined to surrender now, to continue to Do All The Things but to surrender the outcome to service and pleasure. I believe life is meant to be an adventure. Ive always played it safe and tried to manage and control. Its not uncommon, I think -- life seems so fragile and uncertain, and our human selves can feel so puny and weak that its natural to want to cling to whatever sense of control over this spinning bluegreen globe that we can. Im taking my hands off the wheel, trusting that Ill receive whatever guidance I need. Surrender. Service. Pleasure.
Posted on: Fri, 14 Nov 2014 19:22:13 +0000
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