I USE TO BE FULL OF HOPES, AND DREAMS FOR THE TOMORROW, BUT MOST MY LIFE THE ONLY THINGS I HAVE KNOWN IS PAIN WHERE I AM ALWAYS RECEIVING MORE BAD NEWS THEN GOOD NEWS, AND PEOPLE WHO TRY TO SABOTAGE YOU BEHIND YOUR BACK, BUT WHEN YOU FIGHT BACK THEY FEAR YOU MORE THEN U DO THEM. THEY TAKE YOUR HOUSING, ILLEGALLY EVICT YOUR FAMILY, THERE ARE SO MANY WRONGS THE VA HAS DONE TO MANY VETS ESPECIALLY THE HUD VASH PROGRAM EVEN A RETIRED GREEN BERET WE KNOW TOLD MY SPOUSE IT WAS ILLEGAL FOR THEM TO DO THAT. AND I REALLY DID TRY TO FIND LEGITIMATE WORK TO SUPPORT MY FAMILY AND I NEVER REALIZED HOW HARD IT WAS. ITS NOT LIKE I AM A CONTRACT FOR HIRE WHERE YOU USE ONE TOOL, 2 IBS OF PRESSURE, AND THEIR IS TH FEE IN YOUR SWISS BANK ACCOUNT OR YOU PLANNING TO GO TO THE CAYMAN ISLANDS OR INVEST INT BITCOM WHILE TYING YOUR MONEY IN MUTUAL FUNDS, AND VARIOUS STOCKS, DIVIDENDS TO WHATEVER IS ON THE HIGH RISE MARKET TREND. I HAD TO LEAVE AN AREA WHERE I WAS GETTING WARMED UP ON FINDING WORK. MOST MEN I MET ARE OR WERE ON SUBSTANCE ABUSE, ALMOST OD AN GOT TRANSPORTED TO A HOSPITAL. MEN LIKE ME ARE BORN WARRIORS, QUIET AN UNKNOWN HEROES, LEADERS, LEGENDS, ATHLETES, FIGHTERS, SCHOLARS, MAN OF THE CLOTH OR BADGE SOMETIMES BOTH. I HAVE BEEN BETRAYED BY PEOPLE, AGENCIES YOU NAME IT MY TRAINING AN INSTINCT GOES OF WHEN I WAS 19 WHEN WE WAS TOLD PEOPLE CHANGE, AND YOU CANNOT TRUST EVERYONE. EVEN I HAD A FEW FRIENDS I KNEW IN VARIOUS, BUT LIMITED CIRCLES. I NEVER REALLY TOOK THE EASY WAY OUT I VOLUNTEER FOR A NUMBER THINGS EVEN IF PEOPLE HEARD ABOUT ME OR NOT. I HAD TO APPLY FOR JOBS OUTSIDE OF WASHINGTON, AND COLORADO JUST BECAUSE MY LITTLE CUB DEPENDS ON ME. I HAVE NEW LIFE WHEN I SEE HIM OR TALK TO MY SON. BOY DO ME AND HIS MOM ARGUE I JUST WANT MY SON MOM TO SUCCEED WHERE WE BOTH CAN SUCCEED. IT IS HARD TO SAY GOODBYE, AND COME IN, AND OUT OF YOUR KIDS LIFE AN LIKE MOST WOMEN WITH HUSBANDS ON THE ROAD OR IN ANOTHER COUNTRY THEY GET INTO STUPID, AND IGNORANT CRAP. I NEVER MARRIED LEGALLY, BUT UNDER ROMAN CATHOLIC CANON LAW I AM EVEN IN A PUTATIVE WAY. IT WAS NOT EASY BEING A STAY HOME DAD, NOT WORKING, GOING THROUGH PTSD, BEING A FIRST FATHER. ILL TRY NOT TO BE TOO HARD ON HIS MOTHER, BUT AT LEAST I AM GOING TO GET MY LIONESS ENROLLED IN COLLEGE, AND OTHER ASPECTS OF HER TROUBLED PAST TO THE POINT WHERE OUR CHILDREN HAS NOT ONLY A STRONGER MOTHER, BUT FATHER THEY CAN DEPEND ON NO MATTER WHAT. EVEN IN A OLD COMIC BOOK I READ ABOUT THOR WAS TOLD BY HIS FATHER ODIN ABOUT HIS SON ACTING OUT BECAUSE DAD WAS NOT AROUND OR PAYING ATTENTION TO HIM. I GUESS ITS TIME I PAID ATTENTION FOR A LITTLE BIT, AND TEACH HIM AND DO SOME FATHER AN SON STUFF WELL MY FIERCE ONE IS TO YOUNG TO HAMMER THROW, AND TO BEGIN HIS TRAINING IN KEMPO. MY SON IS HIGH STRUNG, AND HIS TEMPER SHOWS ESPECIALLY WHEN HE IS HUNGRY, AND THE TIKE IS DEMANDING I HAVE TO CURB THAT A LITTLE BIT. ITS A PROCESS FOR BOTH OF US AVERY TWIXT FATHER AND SON. I REMEMBER THE DAY YOU WAS BORN SCREAMING YOUR LUNGS OUT ROARING AWAY.
Posted on: Sat, 28 Jun 2014 10:53:25 +0000