I am a normal person like any other except that ... I suffer from borderline personality disorder ( BPD ) and bipolar I feel always like a little angel hiding place its little devil I can be evil , annoying , irritable , aggressive ... yet I was listening to others ; hating injustice , full of humor , love 100% and never above half in love and friendship, it says that I have a borderline personality and my personality often switches to neurosis or psychosis is see through me to protect me while I try to control all my emotions. Only I never control 100% I have a problem to resolve my feelings so often I have uncontrollable anger ; I cry , I hit , I break for no good reason but in fact I wrong to hurt people that I love I cry so often , I have a sense of vacuum inside my body and my head , Im afraid to be alone it is as if it was bleeding in my head and in my heart , I am chained to myself , I mix what happens inside and outside of my body and often I am afraid , very afraid but my first fear is abandonment. I HAVE DEMONS IN ME ALL THE TIME , I wish I could bury it deep within me forever. only I can not do I see everything in black or white I am a time bomb I can explode quickly, I am having difficulty moderate this happens is inside me I often hides the fact that the people I love, I wish they always see me with a smile, Yet my life can be a living hell ... THEN I escape for me in my writing and imagination is boundless and without LIMIT when I write I empty my pain and when I empty my pain I feel much better, have a limit and bipolar personality both is not easy believe me ... so do not judge me , but rather try to understand me . I do not in any way seek pity but I am what I am . it
Posted on: Fri, 15 Nov 2013 18:48:28 +0000
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