I am and always have been one to stack my day full of activities. I like movement. Even in leisure I enjoy an active brain and I cant do nothing for long. While I adore sleep, I dream vividly and often (and in color cartoon if you must know). Im also an observer and I enjoy looking at things and taking in a great deal of my surroundings. Even in relative stillness of people watching, waiting in line, I am engaging in observational movement. I dont know if this is nature or nurture or a product of having Silicon Valley DNA, but, I noticed that my surrounding have been changing for some time now and so has my desire to try to do and be better. While common sense and manners do seem to be more absent than not these days, and the hurry up of this season in particular (due to colder weather, the long to do lists and a sense of where has the time gone as we approach 2014) is a great motivator for speed, I find I rebel against my inherent proclivity toward movement and slow down more IN the moment. I force myself to be more patient almost as a way to balance the crazy, oblivious, impatient, rudeness that is more common around me. And, I wonder whats that about. Is that an equal and opposite reaction thing? Is it taking note of others behavior that irritate me and making sure my own doesnt follow that example? A protective defense against being sucked in to the dog eat dog. Is it the be different gene having a say, trying to stand out in a sea of sameness. Is it growing up? Realizing the little things do have power to make a difference? Is it getting to the point in life where I truly comprehend how charmed my life has really been and getting to the point where I know enough people who struggle with so much daily that Im just more grateful? Is it an attempt to pay the universe back for the gift of a relatively easy life and the assumption that anyone around me could be having the worst day of their life and if I can make it even a bit better I should? Is it just me trying to challenge myself, attempt small bits of change which I usually so despise? I dont know. But, it is interesting to me to ponder. And, also unrelated, I think I will propose to the Avocado Im eating. Its quite possibly the singularly most amazing fruit Ive had since roadside Pineapple in Hawaii in 2000.
Posted on: Wed, 04 Dec 2013 20:18:08 +0000
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