I am beginning to understand how God is working in my life. I am reflecting on that moment when God made himself aware to my consciousness and am analyzing how I got to that point. When God spoke to my spirit...I first had to be humble, so once humbled I asked God to come first and he repaid my faithfulness by asking me what I wanted from him. I asked for wisdom and in a split second or faster my mind filled with the truth of life...all of it. Usually being wise means you have the power as well but for some reason my wisdom didnt come with any so I have been falling apart. upon closer inspection I realized that the only reason I was humbled was because other outside forces humbled me by taking my daughter from me. I lost my wife, my tattoo shop and all of my worldy posessions but they were taken from me against my will. yes I may have been humbled but if I use the wisdom he gave me then I know that the power didnt come because I didnt come to God freely. I came because I lost everything and had to look up. The power comes when, now that my life seems awesome, I would freely give it all to him and forsake my flesh completely. what was once taken I now have to freely give in order to open myself up to his will in my life. I have to go against the norm and against that which would make my fleshly existence comfortable so that I can have the power of God within me to bring about his glory. My middle name is Nehemiah which my parents said God gave me so as Nehemiah was the cupbearer so am I the cupbearer of the truth with the purpose of rebuilding that which he has shown me is broken and in disarray in the world around me.
Posted on: Wed, 29 Jan 2014 06:46:13 +0000
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