I am not brave but here goes. During the 70s I was physically and - TopicsExpress

I am not brave but here goes. During the 70s I was physically and mentally abused for over 5 years every single day, anything you can think of happening did happen at the hands of a man who said he loved me. I slept outside in the cold ran in a night gown, ran down the street and was hit in the back with bricks as I ran. Face and body scared from cuts and bruises. Choked until I passed out and it goes on. And I ran away to my mom’s many times. But, she said something one day while I was at her house, and it was “Pia, until you leave his credit cards and keys on the table you are fooling yourself”. Ultimately I came up with a plan for my children and I. We ran away! And then a new phase came. I was a single mother, young and naïve. I was up against a system that cared nothing for a black woman and Kramer vs. Kramer was on the big screen. I not only had my children taken from me but via eventual Kid napping charges I had a felony. My children hate me to this day and bare scares of this themselves because they think I gave them away and I have looked at me from every angle possible to see where was it that I was such a bad mother that this could happen to me, to me of all the people in the world. Piavazelle was a goodie good shoes as a child and a child bride. I did have a choice. But, I did not know what to do. I was hit for the first time by my husband to be on our wedding day and I was sure that would never happen again. I did not understand it then nor do I understand it now. But, from that day forward, I learned the world does not give a damn about the black family. It will allow the black man to do as he wants to his wife or woman. The male is going to stick together in this because too many of them, black to white are doing it to their woman. Girl children suffer also at the hands of their own dads. This is not easy to share but, I hold it in me every day, all day, it never departs from you. I loved my children and would lay down my life for them and I did. There is way more to this but here it is.