I been reflecting on life since I am turning the big 55 in a month. I had a lot of accomplishments, a great career, I`ve done a lot of neat things, made lasting friends, traveled, no complaints really. I think though my biggest accomplishment is being a survivor of 20 years with chronic pain from Fibromyalgia and now Rheumatoid Arthritis. Over 7000 days in pain if you can even imagine. There are days when I can push through it and days when I can`t. It can be limiting and definitely interferes with my spontaneous spirit. I would love to go out everyday to everything, but I just have to join up when I can and enjoy every minute of it. I really hated not being able to work anymore, but I can say that I was able to retire early, what people dream of by 55. And I was fortunate because I have a decent income, a house, I havent had to sacrifice much of my lifestyle retiring early. Some people with my illnesses are not so lucky and have very little money to live on. Still its hard because one day I am reasonably O.K. and the next day I cant walk more than 10 feet. That is the part I hate. But as I approach the big 55, I think its best to count my blessings, its keeps the difficulty from taking over and helps me maintain my spirit and humor. And I am so thankful for my spirit, it gets back up after every bad episode, and joins right back in to life. Even though my spirit struggles with pain and fatigue and its limitations, it rebounds. It also makes you appreciate the really important things in life. I am resting up because I want to do several holiday events. My bbf, Laurie is coming into town this week, a Thanksgiving party, a Tequila Party, an Italian Wine Tasting, a dinner with 16 friends at the Desert Ridge Marriott, a few Christmas parties, the London Bus Party to travel around looking at Christmas lights, a Holiday Wine Tasting, Holiday High Tea at the AZ Biltmore Resort on my Birthday, Dancing and Chocolate Martinis on my birthday, the Everything that Rings exhibit and show at the Music Industry Museum, Christmas in Kansas City with my family, Antiquing, getting together with K.C. friends and more. The last few weeks have been hard, pain level high, but I can feel it calming down some now. I cant do anything about the Chronic pain situation, its incurable, all I can do is try and have the best life possible. And accept that I have to miss out on somethings, but will be back to do something else and live life as I get older to the fullest extent possible. I hope everyone in my situation tries to do that too.
Posted on: Wed, 19 Nov 2014 20:56:42 +0000
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