I came into Daycare this morning for one little boy. He is only going to be here until 10:30 and then I am done for the day. I think I will do some cleaning and then off to the cemetery to visit Michael for a while. I havent sat on his bench for a few weeks and I miss it. I feel so content and peaceful when Im sitting listening to the birds and maybe the deer will come out to visit like they usually do. I love to sit and read my book. I sometime hear a saw running and then I know that Michael is sitting next to me on his bench. I feel so close to him when Im there. On the 18th of November he will be gone 7 long years. I cant believe that it has been that long. It feels just like yesterday, when Sue and Esther came to my house to tell me he passed in the night. He was doing what he loved the most, other than his beloved fishing. It was the opening day of Elk season and he and his brother Tim were camping in Jewell. He went to sleep and never woke up. He went peacefully in his sleep. What a great way to leave this earth and to be able to sit with God, hopefully waiting until I can join him. Its taken me a long time to get over the loss of my Michael and through out those years I truly struggled to find a happy place. I want to thank each and everyone of you who have helped me through out the years. My family have been so wonderful. You have been my support and my love. My best friend Jan, who I could not have survived without. She,Sandra, Dorothy, Sue, Esther, Marilynne and Kathy have all made me laugh and taught me to love life again. My nieces and nephews have shared their love and their children with me. I love each and everyone of those little kids so much and to all my kids and parents from daycare, you have kept me going and wanting to get up everyday. I thank you for that. My boys are my life and I love them with all my heart. My granddaughter, when we get together she makes me laugh. She is such a goofy and lovable kid, full of life. She is such a lovely young lady and such a good girl. To all my girl club girlfriends, you are my rock. I can share anything with you and you love me unconditionally. Now to all you facebook friends. I know that you have endured many of my tear jerking postings through out these long 7 years and I thank you so much for allowing me to vent and share what love I had for my Michael. I want everyone to know that even tho I have moved on in my life I will always have a broken heart and such loving feeling for my Michael. It was love at first site for both of us and that lasted for 23 beautiful years. I would normally do this on the anniversary day of his passing, but I had this feeling of closeness to him more so today that I felt like I needed to share. I love you all and hug the ones you love each and everyday because life is to short and you never know what the next day will bring.
Posted on: Mon, 11 Nov 2013 17:05:21 +0000
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