I do not use physical or emotional violence against my mate. I dont discourage my mate in her dreams and life pursuits. I dont look through my mates phones or purses. I dont want her passwords so I can check her facebook. I dont care if she hangs out with guys. Or girls. Or exes. I dont wig out if she dont respond right away. I dont trip if a guy buys her a drink or hugs her. She can go to a party by herself. Wearing whatever she wants. She can keep the company that she wants, when she wants, where she wants. She can be herself with me, 100%. I expect nothing less. Im loyal. Im kind. Im loving. Im caring. Im honest. Im there when she needs me to be, and not there when she needs me not to be. And I dont compromise even one iota of my being to be this way with my mate... Not a bit of this is ego speaking, this is simply how I am with my mate if she lets me be myself with her and accepts my love at full intensity. It really irks me how many times in the past month I have heard my friends describe their closest loved one, their mate, the everything in their life... and they are saying the opposite of what I just wrote above. Im somewhere inbetween joy that I can express this to you and maybe help you with it...and total sadness because I just dont understand why theres so much false love in my circles. I wish I could give everybody a piece of me so they could experience deeper love. Even if it meant thered be less of me left. I just want harmony around me and it seems like all there is instead is pain, distrust, violence, hatred, and people inflicting emotional abuse on each other and then saying I love you. All I can do is sit here at my desk and make graphics and cry today, intermittently writing these silly anecdotes, poetry, and encouragement on my breaks. Im lost today because...well in honesty because Im feeling like everyone around me is shattering the love they have to pieces... and I wish there were something I could do to help you all hold it together... because I know if I had some of the love I see you expressing to one another, Id never sacrifice it. I am connected to most of you in a way you might not ever understand or feel. I have deep, powerful, unhinged empathy for the people in my life that I love. And I feel so much suffering the past 2 weeks that, despite them having been two of the greatest weeks of my life, there is an undercoat of disappointment behind it all. If it werent true, I wouldnt be weeping for all of your lost love and friendships right now.
Posted on: Tue, 04 Nov 2014 22:02:42 +0000
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