I dont like too much personal stuff on Facebook, but I also know that Ive always felt very alone in my situation. So maybe by posting this Ill help somebody to know theyre not the only one. Ive always kept it a secret about telling people about my “dad” & just avoided the topic, because it was always was such a secret even to me, I never even knew his name – so I never knew how to explain it to my friends or even my little brothers. Ive had questions that nobody could ever fully answer for me. I always felt like such a bad friend as I couldnt open up to them properly because I didnt even know the answers to the questions that they might ask. If it werent for Jaimie-lee Grahams friendship I dont know where Id be. The only friend Ive ever felt comfortable with enough to tell my version of the truth & the only one I can call a true best friend – through my own fault of not knowing how to open up to others about it without the fear of rejection. Well I dont want it to feel like a secret anymore (hence the post). I want to feel free. Today Im meeting him for the first time in my life, with no high expectations rather than answers to the questions Ive been asking myself my whole life. It shouldnt be the childs decision to meet their parent for the first time & it just enrages me that fathers are abandoning their unborn children on a daily basis, ignorant to what its doing to their self esteem & self worth. Although Im filled with so much pain & anger, I hope that this day will help me move forward, trust others & open up to my friends and family the way Ive always wanted to about my real “dad”. (Quotation marks essential) PS deth 2 ded beet dadz - dey shud al b replaced bi catz xo
Posted on: Sat, 29 Mar 2014 11:10:36 +0000