I dont often publicly talk about myself and my feelings, but I feel this is important. Up until 1:03, young comedian Lena Dunham totally describes how I feel ALL THE TIME... : I dont take very much time off. Im not very good at it... it gives too much of an opportunity for my existential angst to creep in. I just think, Free time: Im having fun for half an hour, I watch some television programs, and suddenly Im like, Were all going to die. Why dont we just use this time on Earth as wisely as we can? Why would I stop now? Im so young, but Im NOT that young in the scheme of the universe. Death! Death! Death! Exactly. I always have varying degrees of Existential Angst. Ultimately, considering the dire condition the world is in, I feel the only sane and conscious recourse in living is to dedicate my life to spreading knowledge, raising awareness of important issues, engaging in conscious self-work (physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual), and being as consciously creative as possible to achieve those aims, while, at the same time, living a second life in The Matrix to pay the bills and use the opportunities gained therein to further my primary aims as quickly as possible. What could be more important in a world that is unconscious and utterly intent on destroying itself? So, Im typically alone at home, working on various art projects, writing, researching, pondering, or piecing together how to construct the perfect utopian society in my head. Superficial chit-chat doesnt interest me, and most people are simultaneously intrigued and turned off by how intense I can be when I bring up topics that TRULY MATTER in conversation, or when I cut right to the heart of being vulnerable and processing what we are both feeling in our lives. I have few friends who I consider my family and they are all very precious to me. Most days, I sincerely have thoughts of just selling all my worldly possessions, moving to a shrine, and living out the rest of my days in a simple, reflective, meditative life. The only thing that prohibits me in doing so is a sense of moral obligation and care for life, whereby, since I am utilizing the products of an industrialized society, directly or indirectly, and since industrial civilization by its very nature is unsustainable and destroying the planet along with all inhabitants with no person exempted no matter what they do in the world, it is incumbent upon me to use these tools to deconstruct the harmful aspects (ignorance, first and foremost) and create a better society in any way I can. And theres no time to waste. https://youtube/watch?v=_2avR_uqVYk&t=00m27s
Posted on: Thu, 20 Nov 2014 17:10:11 +0000
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