I feel the need to say something that has been on my mind now for quite some time.. Just not sure how to say it, is all.. So here goes.. (ITs a LONG POST btw... ) Many of you know im a widow, and came onto FB in 2008, to emerse my grief into something that wasnt a real matter of concern to anyone.. GAMES were what i did for almost 4yrs.. I could hide, but at the same time, make friends, which to me, was what i needed, and have done, and still maintain many good friendships out of a game and hiding myself.. I was always a real person in game, never lied about who I was or why i was there.. I needed friendship and am glad for those friends.. Some i have meet in person, others, are still here on FB, ive yet to meet.. It is a bond that we have now.. I am most thankful for that.. BUT... Time has moved on now for me.. While im still in grief mode at the loss of my only son and my hubby, (7yrs in August for hubby and 12yrs in August 4 my son) I have made many new friends in a whole new world.. The world of animals.. Again, very thankful to the many i have both here on FB, never met and those on FB, that i have met personally.. Nothing can take that away.. HOWEVER ... My emotions run as deep as my heart and soul - and at one time, i didnt think id ever possess that quality.. You see, I used to be a IRONCLAD BIATCH, always had to fight my way out of situations, grew up the extreme hardway, fought for what i wanted and never relented.. NOW... I am in the world of animals.. Not just dogs or cats, but all animals, great and small.. I AM NOT A VEGAN tho - not sure that i will ever be - only time will tell on that.. But it does not diminish my compassion to help those and to be their voice.. I will always be a voice for the voiceless.. I DO... Share animals from all over the world that are in trouble thru abuse, poaching, senseless trophy hunting, and so called food for the masses, in far away places that see any and all animals as purely an animal, only to fill their plates and pockets off their deaths.. SEE... The choice that i now must make, is one that will send deep pain into my heart and soul.. PAIN that is unbearable and sometimes leaves me in tears and having to shut down completely.. I MUST... Cut back on the animal posts that i see, I KNOW THERE is abuse running amuck, violence towards animals that is so vile - makes you sick and want to KILL so many people.. To wish upon them the very same thing they did onto an animal.. THIS is not right - IT IS NOT *The Lords Way*.. This is NOT the purpose MY GOD gave me, to help but to feel i want to hurt others in turn.. SO... I will now be limiting my posts out there, I will still continue to share many animals, but feel I need to concentrate more so on my own home front and state.. I am here, day in and day out or at least 95% of the time to share out as many as possible of the animals that are in need of RESCUE or ADOPTION.. I am but just 1 person... When i see the many posts ive shared with not so much as a like - let alone a share - it hurts and makes me wonder - what AM I doing wrong.. So in my heart, i feel it is now necessary to limit my viewing and sharing.. To try to focus on the animals near and around me and some positive or happy feel good posts.. I will b going thru my friends list and removing people that i DO NOT have interactions with, OR only see them on a thread post occassionally.. AND some in my list - i DONT even see at all, so why have you there.. I TRULY thought that by posting and sharing as many as possible, that I, just 1 person, could really help... I DO NOT see that happening.. I see more death posts, PTS, killed for space, or killed cuz the directors hate animals and have no compassion. More dead than saved.. So many animals in need and NOT enough people to take on the masses of animals daily.. Ive seen more bad people in RESCUE lately - than I ever thought possible.. SO... For the preservation of my sanity and mind - I will limit what i share and who I share out for.. I will try to stay away from the horror stories, we all know thy exist, but i cant do it anymore... My heart is broken, my soul is uneasy, and i just dont have the financial status that affords me to really be in a position to donate to the good RESCUES.. I can NOT file taxes, I can not write off things and materials I need for my own transport business. I buy them, I use them, but not reimbursed for them in any manner what so ever.. For me to still be able to do transports out, i need funds, but, as I have only asked for financial fund help maybe 2x, 1 to get some dogs out and 2nd to help with my vehicle maintenance costs.. I can not in all good conscience ask, when so many are already broke and in need for the animals they take on.. SO... I will be limiting my time and sharing out of those animals and concentrate more so locally.. I truly hope you understand my feelings and thoughts on this.. This is by far, one of the hardest decisions I have had to make.. Like i said, it has taken me awhile to get to this point, but im at a point of no return now, both mentally and physically, as well as financially...
Posted on: Thu, 10 Jul 2014 04:04:42 +0000
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