I get it. I get that I am too much for anyone here. Dont belong here never have. Dont fit in. Too real, too much passion, too genuine, too nice and caring, old fashioned treat you with respect and loyalty. Too into what I do or who I am with. Too into working out and perfecting my body, competing at the highest level, too much modeling and naked artistic pics around the world. Too much attention from people and fans. I have too much love, too affectionate, too touchy feely, and kiss too much. Especially my love for God is too much and bothers people...the knowing who I am and he is inside me and loving that whole being, Im too dedicated and given my whole life to it...too scary for anyone. Too deep in the words he spills out of me not understandable and watered down enough to relate to. Seriously I really get it after every single person Ive ever known has left my life or been ripped out if it I am at peace with being alone, and myself within God. I understand his purpose for me to be placed here and serve as his warrior in hell, thats what this is all for nothing else, for HIM, not myself. This is his plan not mine I dont control any of it, everything I do and say is all him for you I do my duty to serve fully. This isnt for my entertainment or money or status in a made up system. I am a walking vessel of the blood and glory of Jesus Christ. I cant help it if you cant handle what and who I am, but I cant stop God or go against him and his will. It isnt a religion or something I chose It chose me. I cant unchoose it until my purpose has been fulfilled here for him and he takes the very breath from my body. So think you know about me or who I am or would even want to, doesnt matter I am whatever any of you say I am.. Just know before you start I am way too much for you to ever think of getting involved with. Way too much.
Posted on: Tue, 01 Jul 2014 15:30:45 +0000
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