I had a trip to Margherita Assam.Amazing is the affection and warmth of the place that thawed me inside.I have not experienced warmth and agony at the sametime for a very long time. the experience told me as I was so cruel by isolating myself from the people i know who live there.I had taken this trip for my mother to let her meet her kin and re-live her childhood. But the place and people thawed my heart and the condition of the older kins broken my heart.years altogether living on contaminated water containing Arsenic has deteriorated the health causing Cancer.for proper diagnosis,they have to run to chennai. my aunt has become a shadow of her previous self. youngest of my mothers uncle suffers from cancer. one of my mothers aunt has the prettiest of faces.but i could not see her since she is away in Mumbai for diagnosis and treatment. several factors show that the place has very little offer to its residents.there are no enterpreneurship to offer jobs to the youth,no effective medical diagnosis & treatment,etc.lot of normal civic amenities are absent.yet this place has people with bigger hearts than most of the people living in big cities. Some people have shaken the core of my selfish existence.there is this girl working as a teacher who had to take care of her family-mom and brother due to absence of her father.she works away from her family living with her aunts family.she works to take care of her distant family while getting involved with daily routine chores of her adopted familys house.all this without tiring and complaining.such is the amazing tough grit with heart of gold in the core.seldom we get to see such qualities in person. tough life has woven some true genuine characters.She was like a dream come true.talking to her got the child out of me.i had become so immature at the time.i could have hurt my own people in my own kins.leaving Margherita was so hurtful that a deep seated agony that will keep hurting me a for a long time.Wish I had visited the place atleast 5 years before when I was unsettled,messy,younger,with hunger to fall in love.I have already fallen in love with Margherita.As I left this place,part of me left there with the people.I will be remaining broken this way for a very long time due to my inability to stay any longer and do any thing for the people there.Life is so harsh and cruel sometimes. Let me explain the reason behind my cowardice.I have my own set of people to look out for.out there where i live, i have a zombie life with most of my needs met due to good infrastructure without anytime spent waiting and seeking them for too long.I dont have to run mad to other places if someone falls sick,there is opportunity to work as there are lot of entreupeners so wont be jobless for a long time between jobs.I am married at the instant i got a job.So i will not know what is the longing you feel for a special someone before the relationship is finally gets commitment.so you see all my needs are met in time,i do not have time to get desperate for anything.the beauty of desperation is beyond me.I can only guess the amount of sum of all the above desperations my youngest of all Uncles feels.he is so young I have cradled him in my arms as he was a little toddler then and i was in my teens. He has reached that summit of desperation for all the above as he is in tight situation like above.He rotates between shops of his brothers in a selfless commitment to them.He is young and quite good looking.So i guess there are natural reasons.In a way he is much too hungry for life than me as his most basic needs are not met.He and I both are waiting for some good news considering the serious ailment his mother my beautiful dida has. so in summation,this is the place offers to make Real Men and Women out of people who will never have it easy as life is too harsh on them. I have met some real men and women.some genuine people who make me ashamed of myself.
Posted on: Sun, 30 Nov 2014 04:15:11 +0000
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