I have a nice fire in my fireplace, listening to CHRISTMAS BLUES ON RDIO. I am looking forward to Sunday evening, as my mom is treating me, & my sister & brother & their spouses to the FIRST BAPTIST LIVING CHRISTMAS TREE ! I have always wanted to go but like everything else, it was put on the back burner! I am being reminded each & every day that God is good! I always thought I knew that but now it is different somehow. Since my daddy died, Feb. 8th of this year life is more precious & death is not such a scary thought. We didnt have much notice from the doctor that it was time to take daddy to Hospice. I think mom got the news on a Sunday & by Saturday morning it was all over. Everything is a blur after that except for the look on his face when the Hospice Team took over caring for him. I noticed as soon as I arrived when I looked at his face & into his beautiful blue eyes, I cant explain the feeling I had except to say I felt light as a feather like I was floating or walking on air & at peace to know daddy didnt hurt anymore. I know he is in heaven with Jesus & I am happy for that but nothing could have prepared me for the experience of losing him. I knew we were taking him to Hospice to help rid his body of the excruciating pain he was in & had been in for too long but I didnt think about the fact that we were taking him there to die & the finality of his death. It didnt dawn on me until we left without him & then it hit me & I just wanted one more day or hour or minute to tell him how much I loved him. IDK what else to say except over is over & that is what has made me realize just how precious life is & why death is not so scary anymore because my daddy is in heaven with Jesus, waiting for me, waiting for all of his family & friends!
Posted on: Tue, 02 Dec 2014 03:21:35 +0000