I have always been asked how I manage to bear a life-long physical impairment, why I have accepted it, and why dont I seek surgery or assistive technology to get out of it. I have always wondered why so many people ultimately fail to overcome their greatest enemies: themselves. Throughout their lives, they continuously seek temporary relief from the intense pain of fighting a daily hard battle, and whenever someone accidentally or intentionally reminds them, they break back down to the ground. I have been fighting my physical impairment since I was a little child, and today Im happy with it. This battle keeps me focused. It keeps me engaged in a life-long round of chess, where every move and every decision matters. But most importantly, I have learned to wear it as a part of me. It is like a giant spider on my back. The first time it clawed at my skin long ago, it stung like hell. The pain was excruciating. For years, I kept trying to shrug it off. But as I came to learn, it just wouldnt let go. It just sat there, on my entire back. Today, it does not sting as much, and sometimes does not even sting at all, as if the spider isnt even there. We became friends. I feed it daily and I keep it happy. We laugh together. We go out and take an evening walk. Because I keep it happy, it no longer tortures me; a very fair deal, if you ask me. But it protects my back. My back cannot be reached to be stabbed. Stabbers would hit the spider instead. It does not feel anything from the knives; believe me, Ive tried myself for years. Knives mean little to it. And it keeps my back safe, for as long as its sitting there, and for as long as Im feeding it and keeping it happy. And the beautiful thing about it, it stings back at the attacker. I wear it like armor. And Im happy this way. So I suggest you do the same, rather than resorting to failed temporary relief. You grow stronger. You nurture yourself, and you protect yourself as well. Not just from people; but from yourself, too.
Posted on: Sun, 02 Feb 2014 16:19:04 +0000
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