I have been having a Up and down day, The word Happy in Happy birthday has never had a greater meaning for me. Today at Lunch with my dear friend Carrie, I felt happy and blessed to have her glowing motherly presence. I was happy and I felt it. The note of hate that i turned into words of love has vanished into the air. My boy Tony Brown and i walked the river in search of the Bald Eagle also to light a fire in view of its nest. The letters i cut out of the message that was screaming sadness from it deliver, I burned them one by one. I am copying the posts about the letter for history sake and your beautiful words Then they will be deleted forever. If you shared this post please do the same. The action of me posting the note, I fell on the field of my inner battle. i know some who read it felt hate towards the sad author, it diverted love to a different place, it should have never have had to go, a place sadly i used to be. I was not as at peace with the letter, because i posted it. Revenge i feel was in my heart more than the enlightenment i was feeling. I came to this realization today, i have truly forgiven, at that moment I was happy. I could be way wrong, I believe it was good for some of you, maybe all of you to see that. Hate is the great slower of positive progress if we let it in. this is not about me, we see it every day, many times on blogs, Facebook messages, or anonymous posts on articles. My hope for all of you, those who are not a peace, those who do not have the clobbered shield of experience. I hope you read my words and they resinate, as i believe this type of forgiveness, if done more, can heal and inspire a new young beautiful set of children knowing that it is easy not to let hate in. Then I believe they will speak out and inspire us even more. We did not see the Eagle, we heard her call from where her huge nest was perched. I did not come to that place for a physical sign, i was hoping for it, i knew deep down that to look is not to see. This was not happiness, it felt warm, like a fireplace in a remote cabin in the dead of winter. The sadness I feel at times can not be explained by me in words or paint, all i can tell you is it sucks during its arrival and its passage to the eye of the storm. The eye is a silent dream in slow motion, were happy birthdays and well wishes flow like a majestic waterfall. this place, a place were my only movement is a finger scrolling through the love on this page.The eye of the storm will pass and the furry will once again be upon me. My Family, my friends,Skyes mother,Skyes friends, all of you who have gifted a sad man the true nature of a word that is amazing, A awesome, a cool, goose bump forming, warm and cold, hot and freezing, a delicious word Happy in Happy Birthday. hug and kiss those around you and tell them what i feel so strongly saying to all of you now, I love You
Posted on: Tue, 14 Oct 2014 00:30:35 +0000
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