I have been thinking about this day for the last few weeks and I had no idea it would be this hard. 1 year since you returned to heaven. 1 year since I said see ya later to one of my closest friends. 1 whole year without being able to text you or hear your laugh. Most days it doesnt feel real. Like youve gone on a far away trip and just havent come back yet. Some days it hits me. Ill never be able to hug you again or hang out with you. No more betos runs in Tashas bug singing Mariah Carey songs at the top of our lungs. No more cruising state street, going ghost hunting or looking for your dads grave. What breaks my heart even more is not seeing you on Sunday mornings at church. I still look for you every Sunday even knowing you wont be there. Just hoping to get a glimpse of you. I still ask God why sometimes. Why you of all people. He reassures me that you are at peace. That you are whole again. That he needed you back in his arms. I know that you visit Malosi every now and then and I am so grateful for that. I love that he knows who you are and that he blesses you every night in his prayers. I know I will see you again some day but not soon enough. Its been a whole year without you and its been hard. So grateful for all of the memories I have to look back on ♥️ I read the text messages that I have from you and it brings a smile to my face every time. Ive never been able to trust another guy as much as I trusted you. I miss our conversations. I miss our smiles. I miss our jokes. But most of all I miss you.
Posted on: Tue, 09 Sep 2014 13:02:50 +0000
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