I have carried 4 babies and continue to carry 4 babies. I dont know the pain of loss or what it feels to let go of dreams and a future that will never be. I dont know what it feels like to touch, kiss, smell, or hold my child for only a brief moment. I dont know what it feels like and I am not even going to pretend that I do know. My most intimate moments I have ever had as a human being and as a nurse, however, are helping mothers in the process of saying hello and goodbye to their child all at one time. I have held lifeless bodies who are beautiful and perfect in every way and babies who have obvious physical deformities that were not compatible with life outside the womb, yet are just as beautiful. I have heard the scream of mothers that I will never forget and have had to run into a linen closet in order to let go of my emotions and try to my hardest to be as professional as possible, even when my human emotions usually took over. I have sat on beds as we have counted toes and fingers, helped dads give their baby a bath, and loved on older siblings as they tried to understand what was going on. I have weighed babies that were just ounces big all the way up to 9 pounds. All precious in His sight. On this day of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day I pray for all those mommies, daddies, and families. I pray for my nieces and nephews that I get to meet one day. I pray for my friends babies that we celebrated their beginning and then had to comfort them instead. I pray for anyone who knows this loss and I want you all to know that your babys life matters...mostly by the one who continues to carry them. God Bless you all...
Posted on: Thu, 16 Oct 2014 00:57:30 +0000
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