I have had something laying heavy on me all day and I just cant shake it... Several months ago I had someone...someone I THOUGHT was a friend...tell me that I thought I was better than everyone... It blew me away that she would say something like that...it was like putting a knife right through my heart...she was someone that had known me for quite sometime and had seen me come through a lot...they had seen me come from a time of not loving myself...a time when my self-esteem was at rock bottom...so I am not sure if my new found self-confidence came across as arrogance to them or what...but I dont know about anybody else...but I DONT see myself as an arrogant person by any stretch of the imagination...I dont believe Im better than anyone...I live with real struggles day after day...personal, financial and even emotional at times...I just choose to wear a smile through it all because Im not looking for pity and dont want to burden anyone...and besides all that I know God has my back 100% of the time...I live a simple life, never wanting, asking or expecting the best of anything...I go to work and work hard everyday to provide for my family...Does that make me better than anyone else?...Not A Chance!!!! I guess bottom line on my little rant is that if I had to choose between being miserable with rock bottom self-esteem to avoid coming off as better than everyone...or...having self-confidence and being truly happy with being the best ME I can be and possibly coming off as thinking Im better than everyone else...I choose self-confidence...and if that gets mistaken as arrogance...too bad...Im not one bit sorry for that at all...because if thats how you feel about me...than you dont really know WHO I AM...I will NEVER apologize for the perfectly flawed...yet loved by God...self-confident, happiest Ive ever been woman I am today OK...all done
Posted on: Fri, 14 Nov 2014 03:13:24 +0000
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