I have just posted this... Where i am at the moment, on the main weather page as i have been busy not doing much today it seems. Today i just got brushed aside & pleading ignorance seems to be all i got today.. I was going to apologise for not being on the ball today & yesterday.. but i wont.. I have been trying to ask for help, even swallowing my pride begging on occasions. Today Queensland Health even told me that the pathology tests for this cruel disease Q Fever have disappeared or they were not informed or passed on all those yrs ago.. & i have tried everyone one suggested or hand balled onto from, including Qld disabilities who have no criteria for this very dangerous disease, that the drug company that make the Vaccine, even agreed with me that it is being spread easier & further & is affecting more ppl now & will only get worse. Even them even stating that there has been a few outbreaks & they told me of 2 in Victoria & another state recently.. Today i found out on top of all the wildlife & pets that are now classed as carriers who pass it onto humans, there is as well as ticks, fleas & lice also can infect you or your animals. .. The company that produces the Vaccine agreed with me,that it is rampant, informing me after asking that there is only one other company in the USA that sell the same product.. They are not allowed to make ppl aware of how the disease is moving through the animal world but advertise the product target the high risk industries. I believe that there is a world wide demand for the vaccine, that countries & high risk industries ie, meat works, farmers & animal science industries like vets, need the vaccine to stop the Compo claims that they are paying more & more these days. Apparently New Zealand has managed to still claim to be the only country in the world that are Q Fever free.. I believe i could dispute this with some documents casting doubt on that statement, also if i were to do more research on it. but that has not been what i have wanted to source. The Netherlands have had the biggest outbreak back in 2007-2010. They have instead of vaccinating their hugely populated small country (maybe they cant get that much vaccine? ) They are culling out all their animals & stock to try & to get rid of it.. There will be what they call a crisis in Europe this Christmas having a shortage of goat cheese( as a result of the Netherlands culling most of their goat stocks), which affects a lot of products including chocolate ? I have been trying to bring awareness to the problem, but most just think i have a couple of screws loose & i have tried to stay strong to not only to help myself but as many ppl as i can.. All has been to no avail & has taken a lot out of me mentally, in turn has also affected me physically. Also pushing my own physical boundaries this past winter trying to sell my property b4 this summer, simply because i have been finding that after each of the last few summers it has been harder to get my strength back up after sitting in a sauna for a longer period each one that has passed.. I even organised someone from the public trust to come out to do a will for me, which i was going to leave until i moved.. Because they black dog was taking control, as hope of moving south b4 summer diminished.. My biggest fear is having a stroke or heart attack, which is more & more possible the longer i live.. I DO NOT WANT TO END UP IN AN OLD AGE HOME OR HOSPITAL, WITH A NURSE HAND FEEDING ME & CHANGING MY NAPPIES ! Which i found out recently that a local lady at 39 yrs old, having chronic Qfever had a stroke & is in a vegetation state for the rest of her life with family looking after her.. I dont have nor want my family doing that, or even seeing me in that state.. Including my daughter. Youd be surprised what sitting around in one place for a long time looking at all the things that need to be done, but not able to do, does to you.. I am a prisoner in my own home.. I dont get visitors anymore, nor get checked on, & if i were to have a stroke or heart attack outside, my neighbors would probably smell me b4 checking. Same if we were to have a bushfire, etc i am just not sure if i would cope alone under that sort of duress. I am still waiting for a reply from the premier, but i dont think he gives a shit really.. I have been refused access to a copy by my GPs clinic to my medical history in summary form, to even be able to prove ow sick i am to the likes of my daughter who i believe has been told tat i invented the disease to avoid paying child support. Or to show the local Post master at Imbil who told me a few weeks back that i should get a real job & a real life. This is my communities general belief as they have no understanding. I have over last summer & this spring tried a big social media campaign to try & get someones attention & am sure that most gov departments kno who i am, even having the QPS sending someone around last summer because they thought i was on the verge of suicide. At the start of winter this season, i saw light at the end of the tunnel, & was driven by hope. Now after having 3 days at 37 degrees in my shed over the last week, even with my new industrial fan i bought to try & help keep me cooler. Lately i have been having the sweats at night more often & i think 4 out of the last 5-6 days i have woken myself up talking out loud. I suppose that just shows the state of mind i am in, & how scared i am. Today i gave up trying, exhausting my last attempts of seeking help & conceding to sitting around waiting for o response from the premier.. I dont know what to do for the first time in my life.. I have been backed into a dark corner & cant see a way out.. Hence this message & why i had been try to encourage you guys to share info for each other to help each other.. I am in a place i have been a couple of times in my life & managed to drag myself up out of the hole in the past. Now i just dont know & i have been bluntly trying to let you guys know & helping you is what has helped me keep my sanity over the last few yrs.. I realise this is very personal, but it ad to be said.. Thanks heaps for your support & helping me cope & i will try to get back into the swing of things very soon i hope.. Just not sure whether i am up to it ATM. Please help each other & stay safe ... Cheers ;O)
Posted on: Thu, 14 Nov 2013 22:20:41 +0000