I have something to get off my chest so please bear with me for a moment. Most everyone knows that before meeting Josh I had spent most of my life in a very unhealthy and abusive relationship. It took many years of crawling to gather enough strength inside of me to walk and finally have the courage to break free and put that life behind me. I literally started over from the very bottom. I moved to another state, far away from home and family to keep myself and my daughter safe. It has not been easy, and at times has seemed almost unbearable. Never enough food on the table or money to live comfortably. However, I continue to move forward and work as hard as I can to succeed at what I set out to do. We have come a long way. We have a home of our own and enough to get by. I have a wonderful job working in the field I love for an awesome clinic. Most of all, I was blessed with a sweet and loving man to share life with. He is the most caring, big hearted man I have ever met. It is with him that I have found the beauty in life, a reason to smile again, the feeling of being safe. Together we are trying to make a way in this world, and quite honestly I am sick and tired of all the negativity and insensitive comments from those that claim to care about us. In the first place, unless you have walked in my shoes and felt the same pain or suffered the same hardships, you have no right at all to judge me or my decisions. Unless you know how it feels to stretch $20 to buy groceries and gas for a week, or see the look on your childs face when there are things she needs that you cant provide, then you should count your blessings instead of looking down at those of us that are faced with it every day. I am also sick of the rude remarks about Josh not being able to find work. For everyones information, lets get the facts straight. Before we met, he was working in the entertainment industry...trying to build a career as an actor. He was perfectly content to work as needed. After we got together, he realized the need to work fulltime to support our family. He got a very nice, good paying job in Dallas. Enabling us to get a car and begin working toward being stable again. He left that job to move with me and my daughter to Shreveport. For my daughter. I watch this man every single day fill out countless applications, interviews, call over and over to countless companies looking for work. Nobody wants to hire long term. He has accepted every odd job he has been offered. He is scared of heights but went up on a roof all day to work for money to help get a months rent paid. I have watched this man cry his eyes out in frustration at not finding a stable job yet. He is a man, and the need and desire to work and provide for his family is strong. Thats the sign of a good man to me....and believe me, I know the difference in a good and bad one by now. I have no idea why nobody is calling him for a job. He is signed up with 6 different employment agencies and searches constantly. What bothers me the most is that the ones that keep running their mouth about it are proclaimed Christians. Supposed to be friends of ours. I do not think Jesus Christ would promote insensitivity or negativity towards others. Isnt being a Christian all about being loving, kind, and compassionate towards others? Imagine the hopelessness and frustration Josh must feel at every rejection. Or the shame he feels for not being employed and able to provide for the ones he loves. How about lets try a little prayer for him....or an encouraging word....maybe a little show of emotional support? After all, the negative comments do not seem to be providing a job for him....so they serve no purpose. And like I said, until you have traveled the same road we are on, it would be best to just keep your mouth shut. Through all of our struggles, there have been very few friends or family that were there to show emotional support, or stand by our side and hold our hand when we stumbled, and those that did know who they are....and personally I dont think the others have a right to say one word. Sorry for the rant, but I love this man and I am here everyday watching his efforts. It hurts me when he cries and I dont want to hear it anymore. If you dont have anything nice to say, please just be quiet.
Posted on: Thu, 22 Jan 2015 00:42:28 +0000
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