I have to admit, my relationships have weighed heavily on my mind in the past few days. Not only my relationships with women, but my relationships with my friends, my family, former bandmates, and even my own passions. I have to admit that yes, I have my faults, but the only way I am going to get past them is to address them, so to start, I think I should address my relationship with music since it has been on the rocks this year. Anyone who knows me knows I have been in my share of bands, and some would argue that I have given up on too many of these bands or walked away. You know something? They are right. But thats not the root of the issue. The root is that same, stupid tired argument every musician who has ever played a bar asks themselves, Do I play what people want to hear? Out of all of the bands I have been in....which band is remembered? Oddly enough, it was the band that spent the least amount of time, or fuss trying to learn or play what we thought people wanted to hear. And if we did play anything by someone else, it was either completely twisted or it was mocked and derided. People remember that band Sin Nombre. They dont remember a lot of my other bands. This isnt fair to the other people Ive been in bands with. So what happened? I didnt change the scene. The scene changed me. By the time 2010 was done, I had been put under the onus of the assumption that I had to play what other people wanted to hear. By 2012 I was fully under this spell while indulging in 2 bands and inevtibably bending this rule to both by choice of material which really wasnt fair at all. By 2013 I went Full Circle into this formula because Love Knuckle wasnt adapting to this (and this is my fault...I do owe Wayne and Norm an apology, but Im glad they made a go of it with Warm Charlie.) So what happened? At some point in 2014 I wasnt completely engulfed in performing. I was involved with Aline and I started to see aspects of life outside of gigging. This in turn made me question what kinds of shows I was playing. It made me record an entire album of material that I have never really performed live with anyone. It made me realize that by the end of summer all anyone gets out of trying to play what other people want to hear is a piss-poor excuse for a jukebox that will never have enough material to satisfy anyone. If my only criteria are to fill the time, get a few people into the bar or wherever Im playing and sell a few drinks...then what else really matters? To be fair to the other bands: The other bands were fun, but we werent memorable. How could we be when we were playing the same songs everyo other band had beaten into the ground? If youre reading this and youve been in a band with me, I fault myself because I bought that lie. As I write this, I dont know if Ill ever be in another project again, or if Ill gig anytime in the near future, but I do know this: If I ever get into another project, the LAST thing we will worry about is trying to assume that we know what other people want to hear. My main criteria are going to be passion and fun in writing and performing. I dont know if anything else matters in a relationship like this anyway. Have a good night, Crackbook.
Posted on: Tue, 14 Oct 2014 02:10:22 +0000
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