I have to say, the past 2 weeks have been tough. From bringing you - TopicsExpress

I have to say, the past 2 weeks have been tough. From bringing you into this world to now, being 2 weeks old and still getting scared and checking on you 30 times a night. I can now say, Im SUCH a mom lol. I worry when you sleep that the last time I lay you down will be the last time you were awake, I sometimes cry when you cry because it hurts me to see it. I always worry that your sick and I may not know it, I worry that something is wrong when you are perfectly fine, asleep cuddled up. I was an emotional person before pregnancy and its 10 times worse now lol. But let me tell yall something.. This little gift has shown me in 2 weeks just how strong I am and how much you can actually love someone. The way he looks at me melts my heart; He looks at me as if Im the greatest thing to walk this earth. When he hears my voice, he searches for it until he finds where its coming from and I absolutely LOVE that. Branson is my reason for everything I do now. He is my world, my whole heart, the absolute love of my life. He is the most Beautiful little boy Ive laid eyes on and as a mother to this precious Angel, I promise to forever be the woman I need to be for him. I promise to care for and nurture him until the day I take my last breath or as I know that could happen anytime, the day he takes his. Its such an amazing privlege being a mother. Having someone to forever love on, someone who will make you circle the world for them, go beyond measures and 10 types of crazy for, and still feel sane and loved is so amazing. I cant begin to explain how in love I am with my Beautiful little boy. Ill be your rock although you are mine already with what we are going through right now. Im giving you my word and my promise that I will reach for the stars so that you will have everything you need in life. I never knew you could love something/someone so much until I laid eyes on my son December 2, 2014. That date will forever be the best day of my life. So with that being said, Branson and His Deddy will forever hold 2 special places in my heart, Even if we all cant be together as one. Im thankful for the time and love his Deddy gave me and the beautiful blessing we got out of a tough relationship of a year and a half. I wish nothing more than my family being together but thats Gods choice now, its forever in his story he wrote out for my life. But i truly thank Brandon for the past year and a half we grew off of love to conceive you. I love you Branson Hollingsworth and your Deddy; With more than my whole heart