I honestly feel like death is only another mile away..honestly it doesnt even matter anymore..i do things to myself im aware..i just dont always do rational things and ill always realize it too late..my legs keep chugging and chugging through hell and all to a goal but that goal gets further away with everything i lose..i wish someone could understand.. but maybe its me..alls i know is i dont want to feel this pain in my heart right now..ive hurt long enough. I also know its my fault.but the truth is..whether its fixed or not i made a dumb decision for no reason..my self gets in my way..and im sorry a million times..i love you babygirl and if you feel its not worth it i understand.. doesnt mean i know how to accept it..i never grasped the acceptance thing to well but im feeling lifeless..but im grasping this and its that i love you..more than anything could amount too..i know im not perfect i know i make mistakes and so you know its not just a game..youre my world..so please try to understand if you can..and if you cant well fulfill your dreams. I believe in you..i want to stand by you and i know im emotionless at times..but i am sorry. Do what your heart tells you..but i just figured you would see i dont mind putting it out there i made a dumb move..it doesnt mean you gotta let go and as bad as it hurts i have no choice but to understand .i love you and no matter what youve given me the best times in my life and every memory is beautiful because even the little bickers are beautiful when i think because atleast your there when the thoughts pass..ill always love you.. the..so heres to your choice..its your life.i want you and so the world can see it im not ashamed to say it . i love you more than i ever thought i could love and it scares me but i wont let it get in the way..so live your life without me or let me show i can move past my little issues..and i know you love me..im sorry. I love you. No matter what i love you. Thank you for everything youve done you deserve the world sweetie im sorry i slipped doesnt mean i fell too far to not get up though.
Posted on: Mon, 16 Sep 2013 12:39:10 +0000